T^hing^s *I* W^an^t
I want more beauty in my life. I have realised about myself that I have a strong tendancy to focus to much on the negative side of things, and while I don't feel this in itself is a set back, I feel like in the past couple of weeks I either have been to wrapped up in things to notice, or beautiful things aren't happening as often as they used to. I believe it more to be the former (that's the first comment right?). I think I said this before, but everything seems really quiet right now. Like there was some sort of white noise going on over the summer, and now it's gone. What happened to it? I look up and the sky is silent. The leaves blow softly in the wind, and the chill air stifles the sounds of life in my neighborhood. Whats going on? I have slowly been reading "Something Wicked This Way Comes" and I feel like this fall is like the beginning of that book. Something is coming, I just don't know what, but I can feel an energy growing in the distance.
Or maybe I'm just freaking myself out.
I talked to one of my favorite people earlier today; Dan Griffin. Somehow Dan has found his way to Boulder Colorado and he is working for a church over there. I'm ecstatic for him, that is so incredible! I didn't get to talk to him for very long, so I don't know the whole deal, but I'm glad he is doing something that he likes, and something that is really cool. He said he really likes it out there, so I'm glad for him.
Alison, Evan, Monica, Jeff, Justin, and everyone I've ever called "friend" and to all of those that will never read this; I have been so full of love for all of you lately. I've been wanting to say this for a while, but it's hard to get the words out, but I am so honered and blessed and overwhelmed by all of the people that I care about. Like, I don't think I say it enough, but I am amazed at the people that are my friends. I am amazed that everyone loves me so much, and I want everyone to know how much I deeply care about them. I can't put any of these feelings into words, it's too deep, and I've been having trouble even saying this out loud, but I love everyone so much I just want to cry. I just love you all, and I am honered to be your friends and I am greatful for all of the love you give me. I just want to return the love I feel for all of you, and i don't know if I am doing it adiquately, but just remember what I say here if you feel like I've neglected you, because I think about all of you often and I have so much respect and admiration for all of you. so anyways, enough late night rambling. In the words of the Dread Pirate Roberts, "Sleep well my friend, and dream of large women." love, --tObY
"Let not my love be a burden on you, my friend, know that it pays itself."
"The same sun is newly born in new lands in a ring of endless dawns"
"We gain freedom when we have paid the full price for our right to live."
"While God waits for His temple to be built of love, men bring stones."
"The world speaks to me in pictures, my soul answers in music."
All writings by Rabindranath Tagore
"Keep the lights down low and the back door open,
My love rains down like sugar so sweet.
Keep your eyes wide open and my shotgun loaded
Cause I don't want to leave this heaven so soon."
Mark Lanegan
Or maybe I'm just freaking myself out.
I talked to one of my favorite people earlier today; Dan Griffin. Somehow Dan has found his way to Boulder Colorado and he is working for a church over there. I'm ecstatic for him, that is so incredible! I didn't get to talk to him for very long, so I don't know the whole deal, but I'm glad he is doing something that he likes, and something that is really cool. He said he really likes it out there, so I'm glad for him.
Alison, Evan, Monica, Jeff, Justin, and everyone I've ever called "friend" and to all of those that will never read this; I have been so full of love for all of you lately. I've been wanting to say this for a while, but it's hard to get the words out, but I am so honered and blessed and overwhelmed by all of the people that I care about. Like, I don't think I say it enough, but I am amazed at the people that are my friends. I am amazed that everyone loves me so much, and I want everyone to know how much I deeply care about them. I can't put any of these feelings into words, it's too deep, and I've been having trouble even saying this out loud, but I love everyone so much I just want to cry. I just love you all, and I am honered to be your friends and I am greatful for all of the love you give me. I just want to return the love I feel for all of you, and i don't know if I am doing it adiquately, but just remember what I say here if you feel like I've neglected you, because I think about all of you often and I have so much respect and admiration for all of you. so anyways, enough late night rambling. In the words of the Dread Pirate Roberts, "Sleep well my friend, and dream of large women." love, --tObY
"Let not my love be a burden on you, my friend, know that it pays itself."
"The same sun is newly born in new lands in a ring of endless dawns"
"We gain freedom when we have paid the full price for our right to live."
"While God waits for His temple to be built of love, men bring stones."
"The world speaks to me in pictures, my soul answers in music."
All writings by Rabindranath Tagore
"Keep the lights down low and the back door open,
My love rains down like sugar so sweet.
Keep your eyes wide open and my shotgun loaded
Cause I don't want to leave this heaven so soon."
Mark Lanegan