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go back to sleep. insomnia. 4 am and some change. I'd go to my pillow but it still reaks of him. Touch something close to me just to remind myself that it's real. this tired you're never sure whether or not you're really awake (am I ever awake?) every noise reverberates throughout the house, muted and yet offensively loud. go to bed, you tell yourself. waste a few more hours of your life that you'll never get back, and feel guilty later for the fact that you don't feel guilty for it. breathe. tell yourself to dream. waste your life in dreams. wake up. or go back to sleep. it's all the same. insomnia. go back to sleep. go back to sleep.