What's this? A RANGER caught off his guard? No, it's a random bitch session by Lydia.
I feel like making an entry. I don't know what I'm going to say...I don't have anything witty or pre-thought-out to write. I just know I'm BORED as hell for some reason and need something to preoccupy me for a while.
I've just been so restless lately. I don't know what to do with myself and, as a result, I haven't done all that much. I can't sit still and yet I can't get myself to move. I'm tired but I can't sleep. ET CETERA.
Maybe it's the weather? Maybe it's because school's over? I really don't know.
The one thing I know for SURE would get rid of this extreme boredom would be seeing Trav. We have the most insanely fun times...I really don't know how we manage it time and again. But we DO and that is what I want right now.
Who knows what we'd even do? That's the beauty of it. We never really have a plan. We just do things spontaneously and it's the shit.
Maybe THAT is what's lacking right now. SPONTANEITY! That is some good stuff right there. I think my problem is that I'm just so STIFF all the time. I need to fucking loosen up and stop being such a tight ass. Perhaps? I mean not lose it all together and go insane or anything...nothing dangerous or harmful in anyway, naturally. Just something out of the ordinary that I wouldn't ordinarily do.
Or maybe having a really GOOD conversation would suffice. I was just thinking about how much I say every day without ever really saying anything worthwhile. I could wicked go for one of those intense conversations that is so engrossing that you lose track of time and consider ideas that you can barely process but when you DO it feels so satisfying.
Reading a good book could work as well. Any suggestions? Something dark and disturbing would do splendidly.
Enough of this, I need something else to do. Wish me luck, as anything interesting, up to this point, has proved quite elusive.
Lydia
I've just been so restless lately. I don't know what to do with myself and, as a result, I haven't done all that much. I can't sit still and yet I can't get myself to move. I'm tired but I can't sleep. ET CETERA.
Maybe it's the weather? Maybe it's because school's over? I really don't know.
The one thing I know for SURE would get rid of this extreme boredom would be seeing Trav. We have the most insanely fun times...I really don't know how we manage it time and again. But we DO and that is what I want right now.
Who knows what we'd even do? That's the beauty of it. We never really have a plan. We just do things spontaneously and it's the shit.
Maybe THAT is what's lacking right now. SPONTANEITY! That is some good stuff right there. I think my problem is that I'm just so STIFF all the time. I need to fucking loosen up and stop being such a tight ass. Perhaps? I mean not lose it all together and go insane or anything...nothing dangerous or harmful in anyway, naturally. Just something out of the ordinary that I wouldn't ordinarily do.
Or maybe having a really GOOD conversation would suffice. I was just thinking about how much I say every day without ever really saying anything worthwhile. I could wicked go for one of those intense conversations that is so engrossing that you lose track of time and consider ideas that you can barely process but when you DO it feels so satisfying.
Reading a good book could work as well. Any suggestions? Something dark and disturbing would do splendidly.
Enough of this, I need something else to do. Wish me luck, as anything interesting, up to this point, has proved quite elusive.
Lydia