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Many people didn't know this but I spent the last weekend in Boston with Brian. It was awesome! I got to meet a lot of very cool people (and resee some old friends of my own). I really liked Brian's friends, they were all very funny and hospitable.
Boston itself was super cool. I liked the architecture and how easy it felt. It's a welcoming city in the way that you don't have to feel too awkward just being plopped in the middle of it-- it's small enough to get a very easy understanding of and seems very straightforward. And hell, it was wintery-- well, at least fallish. It was chilly and I wore a coat and there was rain. And I cannot deny my love of any place with Dunkin Donuts -- and so many of them.
And that leads me to regret being home. At least a little. Los Angeles is hot (80s today), and dry and bright and I like that a lot, some of the time. Also, I have no job.
I can't describe that stress.
California Unemployment is fucking with me hardcore. They refuse to see a lot of the jobs I've had, I don't have all my paystubs (packed, for moving, I hope they're at Brian's. I believe my Important Documents box is there, so I'll have to check next time I go over, but ugh, the stress in the meantime) to say exactly when I was employed and, more notable, the wages I earned during those periods. They seem to completely be ignoring my wages from Titmouse and Animax. They are also not sending forms on time for me to send back, so I cannot receive checks from them, and I keep telling myself it'll be okay, it'll be okay, it'll be okay. But I definitely have a fear that no, it won't be okay. No studios are hiring. What am I supposed to do? I suppose if Unemployment keeps fucking with me and no studios are hiring I can get a crappy job, but I definitely can't get my own place on those kind of wages-- and I can't stay in Vicky and Karin and Caitlin's apartment forever.
It sucks to know that you're kind of stuck. If I get a low paying random job -- I won't get unemployment, and what I do get will severely be diminished. But unemployment is not favouring me right now. Nor are the jobs I want/need. My skill sets are not varied enough for more-- though I plan to do more art/3D animation and stuff at home now. I just need to relax again-- it sucks to come home from a really wonderful vacation and have a lot of issues plop down on you at once.
Ughhhhh.
Needless to say, I'm under a lot of pressure here and it's hard for me to be good. When I'm under pressure I tend to want to escape -- video games, books. I know the current job market is doing this, and it's not me, but aowehrajkwehr talent wtf.
Brian is awesome, though. I can't describe how easy our relationship is.
Now, come on life, get back in order so I can truly enjoy everything.
Boston itself was super cool. I liked the architecture and how easy it felt. It's a welcoming city in the way that you don't have to feel too awkward just being plopped in the middle of it-- it's small enough to get a very easy understanding of and seems very straightforward. And hell, it was wintery-- well, at least fallish. It was chilly and I wore a coat and there was rain. And I cannot deny my love of any place with Dunkin Donuts -- and so many of them.
And that leads me to regret being home. At least a little. Los Angeles is hot (80s today), and dry and bright and I like that a lot, some of the time. Also, I have no job.
I can't describe that stress.
California Unemployment is fucking with me hardcore. They refuse to see a lot of the jobs I've had, I don't have all my paystubs (packed, for moving, I hope they're at Brian's. I believe my Important Documents box is there, so I'll have to check next time I go over, but ugh, the stress in the meantime) to say exactly when I was employed and, more notable, the wages I earned during those periods. They seem to completely be ignoring my wages from Titmouse and Animax. They are also not sending forms on time for me to send back, so I cannot receive checks from them, and I keep telling myself it'll be okay, it'll be okay, it'll be okay. But I definitely have a fear that no, it won't be okay. No studios are hiring. What am I supposed to do? I suppose if Unemployment keeps fucking with me and no studios are hiring I can get a crappy job, but I definitely can't get my own place on those kind of wages-- and I can't stay in Vicky and Karin and Caitlin's apartment forever.
It sucks to know that you're kind of stuck. If I get a low paying random job -- I won't get unemployment, and what I do get will severely be diminished. But unemployment is not favouring me right now. Nor are the jobs I want/need. My skill sets are not varied enough for more-- though I plan to do more art/3D animation and stuff at home now. I just need to relax again-- it sucks to come home from a really wonderful vacation and have a lot of issues plop down on you at once.
Ughhhhh.
Needless to say, I'm under a lot of pressure here and it's hard for me to be good. When I'm under pressure I tend to want to escape -- video games, books. I know the current job market is doing this, and it's not me, but aowehrajkwehr talent wtf.
Brian is awesome, though. I can't describe how easy our relationship is.
Now, come on life, get back in order so I can truly enjoy everything.