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Don't tell me about being alone.
Don't tell me about being an outcast.
"You are just imagining these things" they say.
I see the looks they give me. I see how people shy away from me. I see how the cashiers greet other customers and then barely acknowledges me. I notice when my friends stop asking me to hang out as much. I notice when people don't want to be seen hanging out with me. I don't pass and I am judged immediatly for it. People back away from me. Online and offline. Online they will talk to me until they find out I am trans and then they go away. Offline they don't even give me a chance. I went from being a "hot" guy that everyone wanted to be friends with to this ugly tranny. "Transition will make you happier" I was told except it doesn't take in to account the bullshit you get from society. It doesn't take into account that this person who is short on the friend side as it is will be even shorter on friends and having an even worse time with making friends. "I am so alone" you say while you have people falling over themselves to be your lover or your friend. Do you know how often I sit alone in this hell? Do you know how often I sleep by myself having not felt the touch of another human that entire day? Do you know much I have to censor myself around others and how much transphobic shit I have to take so people will talk to me?
Think about these things... then tell me about being alone and being an outcast
PS: Please stop pissing Z off. It makes life hard.