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these are in no order. (time or favoritism) but i want you guys to know and see a lot of things. some of these things are so goddamn old i bet you don't remember, but some are pretty recent i guess.
what there was:
when katie came over last year and we found pickles in my refrigerator called "sweet midgets" we thought it was so fucking funny, we laughed seriously for 15 minutes. we made pickle porn, and talked to tripp online and made him think katie was in a wheelchair. he felt so bad for making fun of people in wheelchairs!!
when courtney and jessica slept over one night. we made smores and bracelets. we wanted to have a camp out but nothing went as planned and no one even showed up! we had so much fun that night, and the next day we swam in my neighbors' pool in our bras. they came home when we were in their pool, and i remember being soo embarassed.
when jessica and gregory were supposed to spend the night, but at like 1230 my mom made him go home, and i started crying because i was looking forward to it so much. my best friend and boy friend all in one night, but it didn't happen. i was crying in those pictures, and i don't even know why it made me so sad.
when dustin and aaron came over to pet daisy, and got popsicle all over my bed. i remember gregory being soo mad that they were over. dustin was screaming norma jean and aaron was blasting their song on my guitar, and my parents thought they were crazy. they tried on all my old training bras and raided my room, it was so messy! i miss those days, and we would just sit and listen to gregory yell at me. dustin tried sleeping on my floor but i suffocated him with a pillow. aaron tried having sex with daisy, but not really.
meeting adam fucking lazzara with caley and christina. i was jumping and screaming everywhere, and caley was about to cry. gregory and i got in a fight that night because he wouldn't move out of the crowd to come see me. he pissed me off so bad! i didn't even talk to him after the show when i saw him looking for me. i remember being let down because adam wasn't as friendly as i'd imagined. i learned you can't expect too much.
that was the first time me and selah hung out after we got over our hate for eachother. we went to wal-mart and rode horses and ate parfaits at tcby. my mom randomly called when we were there, and told me to get her ice cream. we had so much fun, and we sang songs the whole time we were in the car.
going to wal-mart with bret, allen, and courtney. i had been having the worst week ever, and we had so much fun there. i don't know what it is about lame wal-mart. i felt like i actually had friends, and we were cuddle rabbits on courtney's bed.
making christmas shirts with jessica, and taking pictures with the deer in my front yard. this random dog came over and stole the shirt i was stenciling so i had to chase it around the whole fucking neighborhood screaming my head off, and when i got it back it had holes from the dog's teeth in it. we had so much fun that day.
making "xstaytruexcorex" with charlie and bret. me and bret were soo nervous to actually record. we wrote the most rediculous songs, it was a really good day. me and bret always had fun whereever the hell we went together.
seeing showbread and wanting to marry josh dies. me and katie showed up like 2 hours late, but somehow still saw them, but we had to leave during their last two songs! i was so mad.
me and leslie always being camera whores, and trying to look skinny.
me and jessica tried making brownies one day after school, and they tasted like asshole. the brownie mix looked so good too :[ then we got 80s with my 7 year old girl headbands.
going to the park on bianca's birthday with her and courtnie. we petted this cute pomeranian, and got stuck on the monkey bars. we were supposed to meet people at LES to have a picnic or something, but everyone had left so we just went to the park.
going to the fair. it was the first time i ever rode rides at the fair. me and gregory got in like 10 fights because i took 20 minutes just to get on one ride. i screamed my head off the whole damn time, and my eyes were closed on almost everything.
being power rangers with gregory before youth group. we took a bunch of pictures and made it into an animation. we were okay back then, and we didn't argue so much as we do/had before. i was almost happy.
everything about journalism. where i became friends with leslie. we took trips to the cantene every fucking day, and complained how fat we were all the time haha. we made a collage of the hot urban outfitters models and it stayed up the whole semester. for every video we filmed we were always so far behind, and did all the work on or after the due date.
after school with ethan. or screw it, EVERY day with ethan. even if we never talked about anything too serious we always had the best jokes and laughs. he always made my day so much brighter and happier. i wish things were still the same, and even if we are on good terms again things aren't the same, i know it.
the ocsar's night at LMBC. everyone had on their best outfits, and me and selah went plain. (more me, though.) we sang songs like we always did the whole way there and back. at the grammy's, i was kinda sad the whole time but the videos everyone made we so hilarious, especially the freshman group!
warped tour 04. me and freddie and jeremiah were making fun of hardcore dancing and we just didnt give a FUCK what anyone else was thinking about us. i remember not seeing half of the bands i'd of liked to see but i didn't even care. we met up with soo many people, and i was having so much fun in charlotte. i almost passed out during taking back sunday. in the last picture you can see michael's sneaky ass running away from the big slide when he had promised to go on it with me, and you can see me getting up at the end of it, about to go cuss him out.
my 14th birthday party. i met tyler (i only knew him as huckleberry finn then) and frogger (chad). so many random people showed up it was so awesome. me, will, caley, and justin tried climbing all the way up on my roof, and we all started falling down and will was on top of me and caley was on top of will, and my parents heard us on there and yelled at me. we had circle jerks in my front yard and everyone was tackling eachother. me and tyler were singing postal service and i was mad at gregory. i kissed a girl for the first time, caley. in fact, caley kissed almost everyone at my party. (all in my closet) i felt so loved and it was just the best night ever. later that night sucked because i watched caley and eugene make out, then dustin and brittany pretend to. chad was passed out, andi was taking pictures of caley and eugene.
ethan's birthday party. we had a lot of fun there. i mean sure there was a little drama and a lot of fight, but i had the best time in the world running around and taking pictures with anna, jumping all over the trampoline, and eating all the great food. ethan was seriously just the best friend ever, and i was sad when i saw he wasn't having the best night :[
going to awanita. my first retreat and i got saved one night there. our van was listening to brand new and we were all singing along. i remember my whole row (me, josiah, and anna) were all crying. josiah just rubbed my back and made me feel so much better. i fell asleep crying, and woke up so happy knowing i had such great friends. that's when i knew i had to get to know selah, and i did! we became really good friends and had so much in common it hurt. it was so beautiful there.
random acts of kelsey and leslie. this summer was ours, and we had so much fucking fun. meeting up at 1am just to smoke a few cigarettes and talk about boys. one time i called you and told you to meet me at our spot becuse i was upset over someone, and you did. we always drank her mom's wine and went to sleep with a buzz. it was the best feeling in the world. making up new trends and styles and owning the fucking world. it was awesome, even if we didn't drive.
just hanging out on my roof with everyone all the damn time. smoking, talking on the phone, crying, just getting away from everything there. there wasn't anything even special about it. it was just so fun to be up there, above everything below us.
that night at brandon's house with all of our youth group. we played ddr and hardcore danced in brandon's room. i peed in my pants, and we had it all on video. it was one of the best nights ever for me. i had so much fun, and selah and i were rapping on the way home.
moshing in the car with katie, or rather anything i did with katie. putting extensions in, going to the mall, going to 5 points and getting really lost in the ghetto haha.
when dustin and tyler came over forever and we didn't even do anything all day. then later i was forced to ride with selah which was the most awkward thing in my life, since we practically hated eachother. i thought dustin was the biggest asshole for doing that. the rest of the night sucked complete ass. but looking back now, it's funny how i hated her so much.
hot tubbing.
evergreen terrace with jessica, adlissa, russell and matt. they were so fucking amazing. i finally got to hang out with caley which i did practically the whole time.
myrtle beach, mother fucker. we had so much fun, period. jessica getting embarassed at dick's, us being afraid of talking to the hot guy and his black afro friend, stopping by places and taking pics to make it look like we went there. messing around in a gift shop for 30 minutes, almost getting kicked out of our hotel swimming pool. booty dancing EVERYWHERE. changing out on our balcony.
what we have now:
well i know this summer was a life changer for me. my opinions changed on a lot of things. like not giving a fuck about really anything anymore. my feelings got hurt so much but i learned to fly past it. i learned it's easier to move on than to sulk in the past. well i moved on. i admit i made a few mistakes, but everyone does. for people to hate me still is just immature, and i don't even care if you do. it doesn't hurt to think i've lost friends because i know that's a part of life. it just hurts to know how much things have changed, but i try to look back at everything with a smile. maybe it's too soon for that, maybe that's why i have tears in my eyes right now. i wouldn't take anything back, time is time and you can't ignore it. things have changed, people have changed, and we all need to pick ourselves up and move on. i don't mean to forget the past but don't sulk in it. we need to worry about the present and the future, what's ahead of us. i think we would all be better off that way.