"I'm not giving in/ I swim"- Jack's Mannequin
Back in Jax. Apartment/roommates are awesome. It's good to be back with (most of) the gang.
Erin got into Emerson, and she told me two days after I moved back. I went through a roller coaster of emotions in like 10 minutes. First, I was super excited for her. I mean, she's going to an amazing school in an amazing city, and she's absolutely going to have the time of her life. Second, I was mad at myself for making the hasty decision to move back to Jax without waiting to see if Erin got in, because it took away the option of me moving up there with her. Third, I was okay with my decision, because later that night everyone came over, we had a party, and I remembered why I love everyone in Jax.
That being said, I'm happy here, but I still think about Boston about 50% of the day. It's getting ridiculous. It's not that I don't like being in Jax, but something isn't sitting well with me. I can't really explain it. It's like my subconscious is saying "Laura, look, you graduated, awesome, but you're still not doing everything you could be- instead, you're sitting on your ass in Jacksonville." But this is the plan. The lease on our apartment is up July 4, 2010. After that, it's goodbye Florida, hello Boston. For real this time. I can't take another year of constantly thinking about Boston, constantly thinking about everything I could be doing up there, both personally and professionally. Because I really do think about it more than is probably healthy.
Erin got into Emerson, and she told me two days after I moved back. I went through a roller coaster of emotions in like 10 minutes. First, I was super excited for her. I mean, she's going to an amazing school in an amazing city, and she's absolutely going to have the time of her life. Second, I was mad at myself for making the hasty decision to move back to Jax without waiting to see if Erin got in, because it took away the option of me moving up there with her. Third, I was okay with my decision, because later that night everyone came over, we had a party, and I remembered why I love everyone in Jax.
That being said, I'm happy here, but I still think about Boston about 50% of the day. It's getting ridiculous. It's not that I don't like being in Jax, but something isn't sitting well with me. I can't really explain it. It's like my subconscious is saying "Laura, look, you graduated, awesome, but you're still not doing everything you could be- instead, you're sitting on your ass in Jacksonville." But this is the plan. The lease on our apartment is up July 4, 2010. After that, it's goodbye Florida, hello Boston. For real this time. I can't take another year of constantly thinking about Boston, constantly thinking about everything I could be doing up there, both personally and professionally. Because I really do think about it more than is probably healthy.