(no subject)
let me just say. oh man. so much has happened in the past month. its crazy.
id give you pictures, but there are just too many, and i cant pick just a few.
its getting down to the final weeks or so and i still dont know for sure if im moving in with them. and im starting to get worried.
ive come in contact with quite a few people from way back when and thats totally awesome. and ive also met a lot of new people this past month. and thats really cool too. i think me being on my own is going to be a wonderful thing.
i can tell my mom is starting to freak out. shes making lists like crazy.
i have learned alot about the people i thought were my friends. notice, i use the past tense there. i just wish they would have come to me about crap instead of me having to guess about everything. then ask, and no one saying anything to me. if im not worth their time to tell me whats up, then so be it.
ive started to hang out with lyndsay alot more and emilia and alan. they're all so much fun.
something happened last night that changed my thoughts on something. you probably wont agree when i say thats what changed my mind for sure but i swear to you it is. i dont deal with that shit. the end. it happened one too many times. your mistake. you could have "gotten through to me" in a different way. i dont need any type of relationship where i feel threatened by the other party. that would just be dumb on my part. and according to some, thats what i am. but youre entitled to your opinion. onto other things.
school is going good. ive got a research paper due at the end of the month. something about the symbolism of tigers.
im 18 and im not in a serious relationship, so fucking shoot me. again, im 18 and i had the "together forever" mentality once. and im not going to force myself into something like that again. im 18 meaning im still really young. im dating around. seeing what everything is about. im sorry that we dont see eye to eye on this. maybe if you would have talked to me recently you would know whats going on with my actions. but you didnt. and thats fine.
how i treat another person should have no effect on a relationship with someone else. you can disagree with the way i handle things, thats fine. what you should not do is "disown" me for how i treated someone else. what matters is how i treated you, as my friend or boyfriend or mother or who ever you are. again, you can disagree with me on the things i do and express that to me. anything other than that isnt the best choice on your part.
islands of adventure was awesome. roller coasters are great. $15 on food is not. gradnite should be fun too. im not sure if im going to go though. i might just get my money back for it. we shall see.
im not sure if i want the tattoo on my foot now. i dont know why. i want something for my dad too/instead. i dont really know what yet though. or maybe the fish from the cat in the hat. lol
go ahead, ask me about this. id love to talk.