I must be stopped

[theadamshoe]

Im going to a lesbian party and then a gay bar.
I think there's a trend; what does this say about me?

Im not sure how i feel about karma or soulmates (sex and the city makes me think of things)

I need cake. Its comfort food. why dont i have comfort work outs instead of comfort food.

Im VERY aware of an oncoming storm and am VERY powerless to stop it. I had the power to make it a triumphant situation but i chose not to. choices choices. im scared. this could be a dealbreaker as ms. fey/ms. krakowski would say.

I had an interview to direct a show yesterday.
interviews are and odd odd thing. someone has control over your dreams?
weird.

laundry time.

but first a final question; when you know you need to change and have been sabotaging opportunities for years; how do you force yourself into being who you want to be?
furthermore why are you so scared of your dreams coming true?
and by you; i of course mean me.

Im at a very selfish place right now. which i think i need to be at to figure out who i am. perhaps this is why i dont do relationships.

indeed.
end rant.
baking cake now.
bye bye bye.