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So, I've been thinking about my social and personal predicament all day, and I think I've found the answer. I keep being hurt by other people, by how they treat me, by how they respond to me, and I couldn't get over it because I care so much. I truly despise people whose lives only revolve around themselves and treat others like crap, so I always try to be nice to everyone and treat them like they deserve to be treated. I don't really care whether or not people think I'm cool, but I do care how they act towards me. Anyway, the past few weeks have been really hard on me in that department, and, combined with the fact that I haven't been able to do anything productive lately, it's been making me really unhappy. I was throwing blame in all sorts of different directions, and it wasn't until today that I discovered what the real reason was.
I've been so wrecked about everything that I haven't been able to be productive at all. My apartment is becoming increasingly unbearable, I haven't worked on any compositions or arrangements, I haven't practiced. Other than work, the blog, and studying, life has been shit. I always was the kind of girl who is happiest when productive, so it makes perfect sense that being unproductive would make me unhappy. I thought about it for a while, and I've come up with a set of rules to start following in the hopes that doing so will lead to a happier Tam.
The Rules For Better Living are as follows:
1. Hold yourself to the same standards as everyone else.
2. put your productivity and work first.
3. Remember to take time for yourself
4. find a balance between 2 and 3
5. eat consciously and healthfully
6. Don't be a shut in
7. keep your spaces clean and organized.
8. Remember to take time for special projects
that's it for now.
Stuff to do this week:
1. Register for classes
2. remail rachel's present
3. go to class.
4. clean apartment
5. write v-day gift guide for Geddem.com
I've been so wrecked about everything that I haven't been able to be productive at all. My apartment is becoming increasingly unbearable, I haven't worked on any compositions or arrangements, I haven't practiced. Other than work, the blog, and studying, life has been shit. I always was the kind of girl who is happiest when productive, so it makes perfect sense that being unproductive would make me unhappy. I thought about it for a while, and I've come up with a set of rules to start following in the hopes that doing so will lead to a happier Tam.
The Rules For Better Living are as follows:
1. Hold yourself to the same standards as everyone else.
2. put your productivity and work first.
3. Remember to take time for yourself
4. find a balance between 2 and 3
5. eat consciously and healthfully
6. Don't be a shut in
7. keep your spaces clean and organized.
8. Remember to take time for special projects
that's it for now.
Stuff to do this week:
1. Register for classes
2. remail rachel's present
3. go to class.
4. clean apartment
5. write v-day gift guide for Geddem.com