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could someone please tell me what it is that we're supposed to believe in?
I've been wondering what exactly I'd been doing keeping a journal, one that I never actually "keep." I guess the whole thing is that nobody from my current life actually knows or cares that I have this particular journal, and in that sense it affords me some freedoms that I don't have otherwise. What I'm trying to say is that I'm going to abuse those freedoms right. about. now.
I love Mike. I love him truly, completely, 100%. I make him chicken soup when he's sick, I kiss him on the shoulder when he's asleep. I stopped doing a lot of things in an effort to become a better person, someone I thought he would approve more of. I wanted him to love and admire me, the way that I love and admire him. I really do love him.
I can reconcile the difference between who I was and who I am. It was for the best, and while I wouldn't say I'm a better person, or a different person, I am better off.
I've been wondering what exactly I'd been doing keeping a journal, one that I never actually "keep." I guess the whole thing is that nobody from my current life actually knows or cares that I have this particular journal, and in that sense it affords me some freedoms that I don't have otherwise. What I'm trying to say is that I'm going to abuse those freedoms right. about. now.
I love Mike. I love him truly, completely, 100%. I make him chicken soup when he's sick, I kiss him on the shoulder when he's asleep. I stopped doing a lot of things in an effort to become a better person, someone I thought he would approve more of. I wanted him to love and admire me, the way that I love and admire him. I really do love him.
I can reconcile the difference between who I was and who I am. It was for the best, and while I wouldn't say I'm a better person, or a different person, I am better off.