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Goddamn this cough. It`s so fucking bad.
:-\
I hate being such a jealous person, it just really sucks. Like I have all these feelings and if anyone steals my spotlight or shit or anything, I`ll get jealous and get them back. It`s just my nature, you know? If it`s mine, it`s mine. When it comes to a guy or anything, I`ll get SO jealous. Cause if he`s my boyfriend, then he`s my boyfriend. Just stay away from him. But I CAN`T act like that, cause he`s not my property, he`s a person with his own mind and his own heart. He can do whatever he wants. As can I. But it just gets to me sometimes.
I wish I could improve some parts of my personality, like they were on a scale and I could like take it down a notch or move it up or something. Cause sometimes I really annoy myself, haa. I just wanna understand myself and why I do the things I do instead of acting on impulse.
I guess it`s something everyone has to go through, eh? Wellll.. life sucks, lol. To be plain about it. It has it`s high points though, really great high points that make me the happiest I`ve ever been. I love a lot of things in my life. It hasn`t been easy but I`ve met a lot of people and been through a lot of shit, it`s okay. It made me stronger. I like it, I guess. Jason makes it better though. He makes it a lot better. We have our moments, but we get through them and we`re always here for each other.
I love my friends too. So So much. When I`m having a God awful day, I always turn to them and they`re there for me, and they love me no matter what. I miss Fabian. Hopefully once we all get our licenses, the space between us won`t be drifting as much anymore. It`s a good thing too.
Deep thoughts for the night are over..
I`m dead.
♥
:-\
I hate being such a jealous person, it just really sucks. Like I have all these feelings and if anyone steals my spotlight or shit or anything, I`ll get jealous and get them back. It`s just my nature, you know? If it`s mine, it`s mine. When it comes to a guy or anything, I`ll get SO jealous. Cause if he`s my boyfriend, then he`s my boyfriend. Just stay away from him. But I CAN`T act like that, cause he`s not my property, he`s a person with his own mind and his own heart. He can do whatever he wants. As can I. But it just gets to me sometimes.
I wish I could improve some parts of my personality, like they were on a scale and I could like take it down a notch or move it up or something. Cause sometimes I really annoy myself, haa. I just wanna understand myself and why I do the things I do instead of acting on impulse.
I guess it`s something everyone has to go through, eh? Wellll.. life sucks, lol. To be plain about it. It has it`s high points though, really great high points that make me the happiest I`ve ever been. I love a lot of things in my life. It hasn`t been easy but I`ve met a lot of people and been through a lot of shit, it`s okay. It made me stronger. I like it, I guess. Jason makes it better though. He makes it a lot better. We have our moments, but we get through them and we`re always here for each other.
I love my friends too. So So much. When I`m having a God awful day, I always turn to them and they`re there for me, and they love me no matter what. I miss Fabian. Hopefully once we all get our licenses, the space between us won`t be drifting as much anymore. It`s a good thing too.
Deep thoughts for the night are over..
I`m dead.
♥