Starting over
I haven't written here in ages now and in all this time my life has changed a million times in a way I never even though was possible. I became a person I never thought i would become, no, I swore I would never be. I fell in love... I fell so deeply, and for so long I forgot who I was, where I ended and another person began...
When I wss 17 i thought I knew what love was. I thought I knew lots of things, now I know I understood nothing. I had illusions that I dreamt of and thought they came to life. Some of them did, but many fell apart like sand castles once the water touched them. I k
now have to remake myself, find myself, figure out who the fuck I am today on my own and it is hard, confuusing, lonelly. My heart aches at the decision I have made even though deep down I know I should have made it long time ago. It is time for me to be trully, unapologetically myself because you know what, it is my fucking life and I only have one life to live. I am coming back here after years of silence to be vulnerable, raw, truthful about who I am and what i want, though it will have to be in English mostly now since my brain functions mostly in English and there is no one that is really reading but myself.
I want to see me, I want to come back and find me the one I thought I knew long time ago. She is my heart and am looking to finally show up and love her.
When I wss 17 i thought I knew what love was. I thought I knew lots of things, now I know I understood nothing. I had illusions that I dreamt of and thought they came to life. Some of them did, but many fell apart like sand castles once the water touched them. I k
now have to remake myself, find myself, figure out who the fuck I am today on my own and it is hard, confuusing, lonelly. My heart aches at the decision I have made even though deep down I know I should have made it long time ago. It is time for me to be trully, unapologetically myself because you know what, it is my fucking life and I only have one life to live. I am coming back here after years of silence to be vulnerable, raw, truthful about who I am and what i want, though it will have to be in English mostly now since my brain functions mostly in English and there is no one that is really reading but myself.
I want to see me, I want to come back and find me the one I thought I knew long time ago. She is my heart and am looking to finally show up and love her.