now i know wat emo kids feel like.
today was pretty shitty. this morning, i searched for penny lane. Lo and behold, she is no longer in my possesion. i hope that whatever force that got to her, treated her with the same love and respect that i did, but i suspect that my father mercelesly smashed her. She was the love child of zoe and I. we christened her with about 3 grams. I got caught at katies with her. Rachel smoked for the first two times with her. She was helpful, and never judgemental. But now she is gone. May she be in a better place than here, with all the ganja to fill her and be smoked out of her. Amen
today also i went to fencing. There was almost the same elevator incident as last time. Not only is my love penny land gone, but i have no to do all that manly love. I saw zoe today and had dinner with rebecca, which made me feel better, and i got a skirt with is the first time i have gotten something big in about a month, but still its not the same as anything i really want right now. And im very scared for nationals. I never thought i would use this live journal to write anything whiney, but here i am and i cant help it at all. I just hope someone reads this and doesnt complain about me being one of those obnoxious kids who just crys on their live journal ALL THE TIME, im not usually like this. Its definatley too much to even think about right now. And i need to stop smoking.
today also i went to fencing. There was almost the same elevator incident as last time. Not only is my love penny land gone, but i have no to do all that manly love. I saw zoe today and had dinner with rebecca, which made me feel better, and i got a skirt with is the first time i have gotten something big in about a month, but still its not the same as anything i really want right now. And im very scared for nationals. I never thought i would use this live journal to write anything whiney, but here i am and i cant help it at all. I just hope someone reads this and doesnt complain about me being one of those obnoxious kids who just crys on their live journal ALL THE TIME, im not usually like this. Its definatley too much to even think about right now. And i need to stop smoking.