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[the_wise_wyn]

I survived that damn thing.

Then I did the show, and... well that Was last week.

there was a lot of brainwashing that happened.

A lot.

Some of it seems to creep up tonight, I just can't sleep. Everytime I close my eyes I hear one of the mantras I was forced to repeat

Don't THink
Don't Think
DON'T THINK
DON'T THINK!

I need a drink from hearing that

Alchol is a crutch live without it

I am a Warrior
I act despite of fear
I am a Warrior
I act despite of my emotion
I am a Warrior
I act without any mindfrik

Mindfrik, now thats an interesting term from that hell-hole I see everytime I close my eyes. It stands for Mental Friction. The specific definition is this, they tell you to do something and in your mind you say Fuck No, or I can't do that. The ideas in your mind, ie: Free Will is Mind Frick, what they were training you to eliminate.

The worst part was the physicality. They were claiming to teach enlightenment, but I've never heard of any enlightenment that includes competition, ignorance, obedience, or getting the shit kicked out of you by someone who has had martial arts training.

That shit isn't enlightenment, enlightenment comes from within, not from without.

Sorry about this rant, I just... I couldn't help it.