Wake Up Call!
3:30 in the morning and my life is rounding itself in my head. Again, circular thinking of the haves, and have nots, of the past few months and years. The longing for Florida is ever stronger, and it seems like friendship is a hard beast to come by nowadays. More and more lately I feel like sleeping my life away, and shunning other people in my life.
Then again, other things happen, and make me laugh at the little things. Talking with people whom I barely know and listening to events that were entertaining 3+ years ago. But these moments are getting farther and farther in between.
The little things keep getting overshadowed by the dark demons and shadows of the past. Earlier today my dad called me up and said he was visiting the hospital because one of his few friends and co-worker, may be braindead after suffering a fall in the garage. And that just brought to mind black events of my past that shaped my course of life.
So here I am now sitting in the night of my friends living room and trying to put my thoughs on (virtual) paper. trying to find some solice in the fact that (hopefuly) I'm not going insane. And realizing that seeing a close friend drinking virtually alone amongst us is a sad, sad thing. Which made me realize alcohol will not be a thing that I will miss over the next year. The thing that I WILL miss about drinking is the comraderie around the shot glass. Speaking of this in my limited times of drinking, mind you.
So I flip on a song to listen to before (thankfully) I pass out from exhaustion.
Happy birthday Maria,
A girl that takes a fair share of my brain estate. :)
Good night and Godspeed.
~Cody
Then again, other things happen, and make me laugh at the little things. Talking with people whom I barely know and listening to events that were entertaining 3+ years ago. But these moments are getting farther and farther in between.
The little things keep getting overshadowed by the dark demons and shadows of the past. Earlier today my dad called me up and said he was visiting the hospital because one of his few friends and co-worker, may be braindead after suffering a fall in the garage. And that just brought to mind black events of my past that shaped my course of life.
So here I am now sitting in the night of my friends living room and trying to put my thoughs on (virtual) paper. trying to find some solice in the fact that (hopefuly) I'm not going insane. And realizing that seeing a close friend drinking virtually alone amongst us is a sad, sad thing. Which made me realize alcohol will not be a thing that I will miss over the next year. The thing that I WILL miss about drinking is the comraderie around the shot glass. Speaking of this in my limited times of drinking, mind you.
So I flip on a song to listen to before (thankfully) I pass out from exhaustion.
Happy birthday Maria,
A girl that takes a fair share of my brain estate. :)
Good night and Godspeed.
~Cody