the ride's over, did you enjoy yourself?
i haven't felt a clench with money more than i do now. let me just say, out of state tuition is a BITCH. it sucks ass having to pay a lot of money, not getting a lot of help from the school, financial aid, or scholarships, and having to get a shit ton of loans out that will only be enough for this school year....let alone another probably two years. And its not just school, but every time i turn around i have to pay for SOMEthing. not to mention that i have to pay for FUCKING BULL SHIT GODDAMN STUPID ASS SHIT like a fucking bike violation from stupid csu fucking police. yeah. i got a fucking ticket today for just riding my bike. who fucking knew that bikes had to stop at stop signs? thats what cars do, not bikes. and its for my safety? yeah then if i get hit its my own fucking fault. but we all know its because stupid universities want to rape us of all the money in our name. sure enough, thats what they're doing to me. i would get another job, but then how the hell am i suppose to keep up with my school work? i'm already way frickin behind already. and my mom is now pressuring me to make sure i get really good grades. i guess procrastinating on this paper thats due wednesday probably isn't a good thing then huh?
what a sucky ass world where everything revolves around money. it sucks having to constantly be worrying about whether you can afford things. it sucks having to work your ass off to see it not even accumulating in your bank account but just disappearing on some sort of bill. it fucking sucks and its starting to make me miserable.
i wish school didn't get in the way of my fun time. its funny to think that i consider running fun time now. i guess because i only think of school and work as "not fun" time...so anything other than that is fun. i'm constantly worrying about things i need to get done and if i am just sitting around doing random stuff, i think of everything i should be doing. like now, i should be writing my paper, but i wanted to take two seconds to vent. i already need a break from school and i've only been here for a month.
i need to play soccer. real soon.
what a sucky ass world where everything revolves around money. it sucks having to constantly be worrying about whether you can afford things. it sucks having to work your ass off to see it not even accumulating in your bank account but just disappearing on some sort of bill. it fucking sucks and its starting to make me miserable.
i wish school didn't get in the way of my fun time. its funny to think that i consider running fun time now. i guess because i only think of school and work as "not fun" time...so anything other than that is fun. i'm constantly worrying about things i need to get done and if i am just sitting around doing random stuff, i think of everything i should be doing. like now, i should be writing my paper, but i wanted to take two seconds to vent. i already need a break from school and i've only been here for a month.
i need to play soccer. real soon.