Here With Out You
I havnt writin in the longest time...like almost 2 weeks i think...surprise for me...lol..buh a lot of stuff has been happening..a lot of confusin stuff...like all this stuff b/w me and Trevor i have no idea wah is going on..he told me on friday he didnt like labels..and its jus damn...we have been "seeing" each other for like 2 weeks...and he tells me this now that he doesnt like labels..i wanna tlk to him about it buh i like wahs going on...i dun want to fuck it up...buh i dun wanna have it lead to no where...I LIKE YOU A LOT...PLEASE JUST SAY YOU WILL BE THERE FOR ME...Stephs party was a blast on Saturday...I had so much fun dancin...i havnt danced in the longest time...I LOVE YOU STEPH...and i made Trevor slow dance to Nelly...lol...i knw he probaly doesnt even knw who Nelly is buh oh well...I REPLAY IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN...i could have fallen a sleep while we were dancin...i had my head on his chest...and it was so comfortable..when he wlked into the hall...i dun think i ever let him go...i have never hugged him that much it just felt so rite...like it was all suppose to happen..i was thinking on sunday that it was all one big dream..This couldnt really be happening to me....i like him a lot...hes the sweetest guy and im lucky...buh its jus confusin..when people ask me if we are going out i dont know what to say...yes no maybe...:(...I told him to call me today but who knws if he does...i really wanna tlk to him...i wanna straighten things out..i wanna relationship buh i dun want one like my brothers where he cant do anything without her...i cant stand not havin my freedom in a relationship..and i dun want Trevor to feel the same..My bro has lost a lot of his friends because they cant stand his gurlfriend..and there is no way i want that to happen i love my friends way way WAY too much to ever let a guy come in b/w us...OMG on friday we were kissing each other in front of my house...like made kissin each other and i went to back away and he pulled me into him and wouldnt let me go..i was like dude HOT...i love it when he does that...tho that would be the first lol...buh if he wanted to do it again...i wouldnt have a problem with it..omg i cant stop thinking bout friday and saturday...Im Drunk Off Your Kiss For Another Nite In A Row..This Is Becoming To Routine For Me..But Ive Lost All Control..I took him outside and we jus held each other and kissed a lil..And JEN we WERNT makin out on the dance floor...NO MATTER WAH U SAY...oh wait..after over and over again we were kissin for a bit...OPPS...that one just left my mind...lol...Flay Away With Me..Take Hand And We Can See..Where It Is We Are Ment To Be....