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everything i wrote in my
last entry about May 24 and my bros friend.bull shit i FUCKED that up
so bad.my bro found out that he came over to my house and he started to
freak on me.and now my bro fucking HATES his best friend.what the hell
did i do.i shouldnt have continued anything after that day.when he
asked me if i wanted anything to happen i should have said no because i
knw if we lied to my bro when he found out he would be PISSED.and guess
what he was.and i havnt even tlked to the guy since so i cant even tell
him what happened i emailed him but who knows if he got it.and now im
confused with a WHOLE other boy.i kinda liked him at the begining of
the school year but he fucked that over.then since we have become
friends again and whatever im not going to go into detail about that
because i dont want anything to start up.and i think i just lost one of
my best friends.i have been wanting to say stuff to her for ever just
to get it off my chest but i just couldnt because i didnt know how she
would react.maybe never tlk to me again.get pissed off and we start a
yelling match who knows.but when i finnaly did say something.she said i
few things i think mostly just tryin to convince herself who know i
probaly would have done it to.but guess what after i said it she stoped
tlkin and wlked away so whatever.i had to say something
sometime.because i was starting to freak out on random people about u
because of things u would do.things i could never tell you.you know i
will always be there for u.and i didnt mean for when i said those
things for us to stop talkin.but like i said before i had to say
them.and i still cant believe what happened after school today.what you
said was SO shocking.but let me take it slow with u this time.i dont
want to get hurt by you again.i have been havin random fights with my
mom too ever since my bro came home.on saturday AND sunday i basically
told her to fuck off over the phone because she kept nagging me and
naggin me i couldnt take it anymore.im sorry mom but sometimes u need
to just leave me the FUCK alone and let me do what u want to do.and no
im not going to go out and smoke fucking dope and get piss assed
drunk.wait the last one mite be tru.but can u just let me live my life
please.STOP gettin me confused with my brother because i am NOTHING
like him at all.THE END BIOTCH