but you're barely scraping by...
i am barely scraping by, and i think i'm not making it anymore.
i don't know why. what's wrong with me? i need more self-dicipline. how does one get that? military school?
everyone gives you attention when you cry. I don't know why that is either, but I don't like it because they always ask you what's wrong, and I can never tell them, because I don't know. That's the worst part. I know I'm upset, but I need to find something to blame it on, because I don't know what to be upset about. I just am. Gah. I would say that I need a change, but maybe I don't. I could never leave here, these people have become my family away from home.
I do know that I'm pissed about being campused, and Erin. She skipped a whole day of class, and what do they do? NOTHING! not a fucking thing. I missed one breakfast check-in before vacation and wasn't even late to class, and what do I get? CAMPUSED! FUCK THIS! I want to go. And again yesterday, Erin skipped class because she was "upset." Boo fucking hoo. Suck it up, pussy, and go to class. She has NO reason to be upset. She has it so good, she doesn't even realize. God. It really pisses me off.
Ok, I'm not going to say anymore. I need to do something. Like fold laundry.
i don't know why. what's wrong with me? i need more self-dicipline. how does one get that? military school?
everyone gives you attention when you cry. I don't know why that is either, but I don't like it because they always ask you what's wrong, and I can never tell them, because I don't know. That's the worst part. I know I'm upset, but I need to find something to blame it on, because I don't know what to be upset about. I just am. Gah. I would say that I need a change, but maybe I don't. I could never leave here, these people have become my family away from home.
I do know that I'm pissed about being campused, and Erin. She skipped a whole day of class, and what do they do? NOTHING! not a fucking thing. I missed one breakfast check-in before vacation and wasn't even late to class, and what do I get? CAMPUSED! FUCK THIS! I want to go. And again yesterday, Erin skipped class because she was "upset." Boo fucking hoo. Suck it up, pussy, and go to class. She has NO reason to be upset. She has it so good, she doesn't even realize. God. It really pisses me off.
Ok, I'm not going to say anymore. I need to do something. Like fold laundry.