Reflection on Trance of Scarcity
I'm reading this extremely deep and very intensely thought provoking book and scarcity. I've been working on this book now and the journal/attitude exercises for over a year now. I'm on chapter 4 and there are 10 Chapters. It really has been life changing as I have gone through this piece by piece. Mind you I've had other life changing experiences and therapy and such all of which were to help me heal. This one helps me grow.
I've been really spending a great deal of time on this as an evening task because I really want to break some of the more fundamental philosophies that drive me. Some of those are listed below, it is not a complete list I have, nor does it contain all the parts but at least it gives you some ideas of the thinking that I have grown up with. Some of them you might be familiar with too
You have to work hard to succeed
You must sacrifice in order to gain
Doing nothing is not valuable - its wasting time
Doing X (where X is DVDs, Games, socializing etc) is really wasting time.
Time is very precious
Time is very valuable
Do not squander your time
You must have a goal and have fulfilled it to achieve growth
Never settle for second best as an outcome in your work
Jobs/Chores are not meant to be pleasurable.
Work is cutthroat
Everyone is out for themselves.
Good things don't just happen
Pain makes you stronger (and several variations of this one)
Without Pain you would not know pleasure
Everything takes too much time
Pleasure is a reward
I could go on, but right now the chapter I am on is finding pleasure in everything you think and do - And mind you that is not easy, however, I would like to share with you today's experience.
My kitchen - Why I hated doing chores.
Clean clean clean, the common theme. Cook and then have to clean. How absolutely I disliked this activity. But it was needed, required to do what I truly love doing - cooking (and not just that throw something box mix or such together, but really cooking, recipes and all) . What was worse is the kitchen never quite was as clean as I wanted it, unless tya_lee was in a seriously deep cleaning mood and that has become almost extinct. Fox while he will load and unload the dishwasher, just wouldn't go to the level I wanted.
Each Saturday or Sunday I would start the - ritual -, and find everything to get out of it. But today I decided to really examine this, find out what my brain thinks about, giving myself permission to rest and take breaks. I set a list of must haves, nice to haves and above and beyond group and started down that path. Must have was to finally deal with the potatoe/onion/rice area.
I also practiced one of the exercises during this. The think of the pleasure about making the kitchen ready for my next cooking adventure.
I can actually say for the most part it paid off. I didn't do the above and beyond, and I almost finished the nice to have (two cupboards need to be wiped down) but I did finish my kitchen - EVEN in the middle of cooking my latest creation. (Mediterranean Chicken wraps with creamy cucumber dressing.)
I found myself marveled by the idea of watching my kitchen transfer itself from the dredgy space and become alive and clean again. With a few more organized areas to work with. And thats what made it worth it, realizing that part of cooking these wonderful creations is the necessary aspect of cleaning and putting my kitchen palette back to a start point, just like I do with my actual area where I make jewelry (the table workspace).
I know there still will be moments as I reset my kitchen palette this week back that I will find myself slipping in the trance of - I don't have enough time or this is taking too much time' and start loosing the sense of pleasure, but the first step has been taken onto the new bridge and it was quite solid.
I've been really spending a great deal of time on this as an evening task because I really want to break some of the more fundamental philosophies that drive me. Some of those are listed below, it is not a complete list I have, nor does it contain all the parts but at least it gives you some ideas of the thinking that I have grown up with. Some of them you might be familiar with too
You have to work hard to succeed
You must sacrifice in order to gain
Doing nothing is not valuable - its wasting time
Doing X (where X is DVDs, Games, socializing etc) is really wasting time.
Time is very precious
Time is very valuable
Do not squander your time
You must have a goal and have fulfilled it to achieve growth
Never settle for second best as an outcome in your work
Jobs/Chores are not meant to be pleasurable.
Work is cutthroat
Everyone is out for themselves.
Good things don't just happen
Pain makes you stronger (and several variations of this one)
Without Pain you would not know pleasure
Everything takes too much time
Pleasure is a reward
I could go on, but right now the chapter I am on is finding pleasure in everything you think and do - And mind you that is not easy, however, I would like to share with you today's experience.
My kitchen - Why I hated doing chores.
Clean clean clean, the common theme. Cook and then have to clean. How absolutely I disliked this activity. But it was needed, required to do what I truly love doing - cooking (and not just that throw something box mix or such together, but really cooking, recipes and all) . What was worse is the kitchen never quite was as clean as I wanted it, unless tya_lee was in a seriously deep cleaning mood and that has become almost extinct. Fox while he will load and unload the dishwasher, just wouldn't go to the level I wanted.
Each Saturday or Sunday I would start the - ritual -, and find everything to get out of it. But today I decided to really examine this, find out what my brain thinks about, giving myself permission to rest and take breaks. I set a list of must haves, nice to haves and above and beyond group and started down that path. Must have was to finally deal with the potatoe/onion/rice area.
I also practiced one of the exercises during this. The think of the pleasure about making the kitchen ready for my next cooking adventure.
I can actually say for the most part it paid off. I didn't do the above and beyond, and I almost finished the nice to have (two cupboards need to be wiped down) but I did finish my kitchen - EVEN in the middle of cooking my latest creation. (Mediterranean Chicken wraps with creamy cucumber dressing.)
I found myself marveled by the idea of watching my kitchen transfer itself from the dredgy space and become alive and clean again. With a few more organized areas to work with. And thats what made it worth it, realizing that part of cooking these wonderful creations is the necessary aspect of cleaning and putting my kitchen palette back to a start point, just like I do with my actual area where I make jewelry (the table workspace).
I know there still will be moments as I reset my kitchen palette this week back that I will find myself slipping in the trance of - I don't have enough time or this is taking too much time' and start loosing the sense of pleasure, but the first step has been taken onto the new bridge and it was quite solid.