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HIM tickets are one sale. This is exciting to me. Hmm... I'll probably get them next weekend. I have had this rather strange feeling lately. I am extremely excited about getting out of high school, and getting out of El Paso. I feel that it's something that I must do, not should. And I don't want to get out because "El Paso sucks". I have always been reminded of what a beautiful city it is, you just have to look for it (it's mainly on the west side). But I need to find myself. I cannot do this with people I know surrounding me.
I have realized that there is one person that I will genuinely and completely miss when I leave next year. That person knows who they are. I have only been able to open myself up completely to them, and it's gonna suck not being able to see him anymore. But oh well.
I was asked to move in with him this summer. I don't know if I want to do it. I know that we are becoming HIM roadies this summer. We are gonna start following them and plan on seeing them atleast 5 or 6 times. I am gonna stop going to lunch so that I can save money. AND, I am gonna bring a little box so people can donate money, because it's gonna be a faith trip. Faith that we can eat everyday, and hopefully won't have to sleep in the car too much.
Music completely and totally entrances me. I can feel every emotion that I am capable of feeling by simply putting in a cd, and then be emotionally, mentally, and physically exhausted after is ends. It's like sex. An amazing sense orgy all for me. Time stops so that we can fulfill our sexual urges that are found on staffs, notes, and lyrics.
i am sorry if this part offends anyone, but fuck off, im an asshole. you know what I'm not sorry.
i can't wait to get away from so many people. I can't wait to leave them behind and only have to see them once a year, if that. I'm tired of sarcasm, and I'm tired of "Your mother" being used as a comeback. As a matter of fact, Fuck you all, it would be easier to pick out the ones I don't hate than the ones I do.
I have realized that there is one person that I will genuinely and completely miss when I leave next year. That person knows who they are. I have only been able to open myself up completely to them, and it's gonna suck not being able to see him anymore. But oh well.
I was asked to move in with him this summer. I don't know if I want to do it. I know that we are becoming HIM roadies this summer. We are gonna start following them and plan on seeing them atleast 5 or 6 times. I am gonna stop going to lunch so that I can save money. AND, I am gonna bring a little box so people can donate money, because it's gonna be a faith trip. Faith that we can eat everyday, and hopefully won't have to sleep in the car too much.
Music completely and totally entrances me. I can feel every emotion that I am capable of feeling by simply putting in a cd, and then be emotionally, mentally, and physically exhausted after is ends. It's like sex. An amazing sense orgy all for me. Time stops so that we can fulfill our sexual urges that are found on staffs, notes, and lyrics.
i am sorry if this part offends anyone, but fuck off, im an asshole. you know what I'm not sorry.
i can't wait to get away from so many people. I can't wait to leave them behind and only have to see them once a year, if that. I'm tired of sarcasm, and I'm tired of "Your mother" being used as a comeback. As a matter of fact, Fuck you all, it would be easier to pick out the ones I don't hate than the ones I do.