and i need to take a pill to make this town feel okay
ugh what a waste of a day.
worked. got bitched at...no surprise there...i mean seriously is there a sign on my forehead that says BITCH AT ME!. its like everyone was in a bad mood so i got in a bad mood. and i got bitchy. then it was a bitch fest. wow i hate the meadows.
alot of old shit got rehashed today and it led me to that really psychotic bipoloar mood i have. i was like wow, im worthless. and its one of those things no matter how many times you tell me otherwise i wont pay attention so its pointless to even begin hence me answering the question "Are you okay?" with a ...yeah. and i still just want out of here. it seems like no matter how many times i say i hate it here its like i never said it at all. i dont know what else im supposed to do. its like im screaming it at people and they cant hear me. i get nowhere. its like DC was in my hands then someone brutally took it away. of all the nerve. gah. i saw how nice it was to start over with new friends. they dont judge me or whatever. just think how easy it would be to start over all together. no one there would know me no one would know the past. i could put it all behind me like it never happend. i could live out my philosophy of there being no one there theres no one to let you do. i mean its not like anyone gives a damn now so why shall i be around for them ignore. its taking up their energy. i apologize for running you dry. im sure it takes alot of work to blow off a person. thanks anyways. i have let two people get close to me. and i like it like that. the third one is pending. theyve seen it thru my eyes they know whats up with me. no one else can say theyve walked in my shoes otherwise youd be able to define betrayl by naming people as opposed to websters definition. and their still betraying me even after the ties have been cut...now that takes talent.
FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKING GOD IM SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF THIS SHIT IM COMING STEAL BACK THE STOLEN PROPERTY...ITS MY SHIT SO IM TAKING WHATS RIGHTFULLY MINE.whens it gone dont fucking cry to me i will have no sympathy. so fuck you and fuck all of you who think im overreacting she fucking agreed to give it back when we were in school still. what the fuck happened to that HUH...NICKI WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT!? ...
oh but i forgot..ive been busy..
busy what? FUCKING YOUR BOYFRIEND??? wow okay thanks i know now im on the bottom of the food chain in this town. what? is it in pieces too? is it another color? or was it sold off to some other motherfucker that im gonna have to kill...HUH WHAT THE FUCK IS THE EXCUSE NOW DAMNIT. daddy can buy you one just give me mine back for the love of god.
that there is a good reason why i fuckin hate naperville...THUMBS UP THEIR ASSES. they cant spell respect let alone show it to other people. weed is more important than school. suburban kids suck i hate them i hate being one. i want out goddamnit.
OH BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO you have to stay here and LA DE FUCKIN DA...does it sound like i care? no not really. if it gets to the point i will just leave all on my own. im sick of the people here im sick of this town. do i have to right GET ME OUT in blood on a wall? i mean seriously. its like im not speaking english.
the western suburbs are sliding the blade along the vein.
today it was like...did we really have to talk about Kevin. that whole conversation pissed me off. it was a reminder of another reason why i hate it here. hes in the past i cant change it..despite the days i want to i cant. and its not like the bad shit got rehashed. thats fine that'll make me not like him. but the good stuff had to come out....RAWR RAWR RAWR.
whatever whats the point. i cant seem to rant in peace in this town without getting shit. like i said. fuck you.
worked. got bitched at...no surprise there...i mean seriously is there a sign on my forehead that says BITCH AT ME!. its like everyone was in a bad mood so i got in a bad mood. and i got bitchy. then it was a bitch fest. wow i hate the meadows.
alot of old shit got rehashed today and it led me to that really psychotic bipoloar mood i have. i was like wow, im worthless. and its one of those things no matter how many times you tell me otherwise i wont pay attention so its pointless to even begin hence me answering the question "Are you okay?" with a ...yeah. and i still just want out of here. it seems like no matter how many times i say i hate it here its like i never said it at all. i dont know what else im supposed to do. its like im screaming it at people and they cant hear me. i get nowhere. its like DC was in my hands then someone brutally took it away. of all the nerve. gah. i saw how nice it was to start over with new friends. they dont judge me or whatever. just think how easy it would be to start over all together. no one there would know me no one would know the past. i could put it all behind me like it never happend. i could live out my philosophy of there being no one there theres no one to let you do. i mean its not like anyone gives a damn now so why shall i be around for them ignore. its taking up their energy. i apologize for running you dry. im sure it takes alot of work to blow off a person. thanks anyways. i have let two people get close to me. and i like it like that. the third one is pending. theyve seen it thru my eyes they know whats up with me. no one else can say theyve walked in my shoes otherwise youd be able to define betrayl by naming people as opposed to websters definition. and their still betraying me even after the ties have been cut...now that takes talent.
FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKING GOD IM SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF THIS SHIT IM COMING STEAL BACK THE STOLEN PROPERTY...ITS MY SHIT SO IM TAKING WHATS RIGHTFULLY MINE.whens it gone dont fucking cry to me i will have no sympathy. so fuck you and fuck all of you who think im overreacting she fucking agreed to give it back when we were in school still. what the fuck happened to that HUH...NICKI WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT!? ...
oh but i forgot..ive been busy..
busy what? FUCKING YOUR BOYFRIEND??? wow okay thanks i know now im on the bottom of the food chain in this town. what? is it in pieces too? is it another color? or was it sold off to some other motherfucker that im gonna have to kill...HUH WHAT THE FUCK IS THE EXCUSE NOW DAMNIT. daddy can buy you one just give me mine back for the love of god.
that there is a good reason why i fuckin hate naperville...THUMBS UP THEIR ASSES. they cant spell respect let alone show it to other people. weed is more important than school. suburban kids suck i hate them i hate being one. i want out goddamnit.
OH BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO you have to stay here and LA DE FUCKIN DA...does it sound like i care? no not really. if it gets to the point i will just leave all on my own. im sick of the people here im sick of this town. do i have to right GET ME OUT in blood on a wall? i mean seriously. its like im not speaking english.
the western suburbs are sliding the blade along the vein.
today it was like...did we really have to talk about Kevin. that whole conversation pissed me off. it was a reminder of another reason why i hate it here. hes in the past i cant change it..despite the days i want to i cant. and its not like the bad shit got rehashed. thats fine that'll make me not like him. but the good stuff had to come out....RAWR RAWR RAWR.
whatever whats the point. i cant seem to rant in peace in this town without getting shit. like i said. fuck you.