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Sometimes I really feel like no one understands me. No matter how hard I try to explain my thoughts I usually become lost in my own thoughts or confused on how to express them. Like I can see the way I want something to go in my head, but if I had to show you or tell you it wouldn't equal at all. I talk to my best friend and even she doesn't get me, or maybe I'm just looking for a certain response.
I don't think I make a great guy in the sense that I don't live up to what a "guy" should be. I hear about guys being jerks to girls and they don't consider their feelings or wants. Then, I look at myself and see my overly affectionate self and damn myself in that I care too much. Its like, on one hand I'd make a great guy to have, loving, kind, understanding, but then when it comes to getting the girl in the first place being myself means being all that. Being the guy that remembers how you looked or when I saw you for the first time. Then, this only leads to my eventual collapse when trying to tell her how I feel.
I've been an emotional wreck as of late. Due to college and many other things, I can't seem to have a consistent night of peace. One night I may feel great, then the next time I feel like just wanna climb into my bed and drift off.
Going to church today felt really different. I can't quite explain it, how surprizing. I felt like I needed to do something, do something to help people. I've been told that this is the desire that one must have in make it in the medical field. I thought about sleeping and thought about what a small but powerful comfort it is to sleep at peace. Many people around the world due to natural disaster, political conflict, or other reasons just aren't able to know a single night of peace. Everyone should be able to know what peaceful sleep is like, and I wish I could find a way to grant this simple thing to people.
"My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone"
I don't think I make a great guy in the sense that I don't live up to what a "guy" should be. I hear about guys being jerks to girls and they don't consider their feelings or wants. Then, I look at myself and see my overly affectionate self and damn myself in that I care too much. Its like, on one hand I'd make a great guy to have, loving, kind, understanding, but then when it comes to getting the girl in the first place being myself means being all that. Being the guy that remembers how you looked or when I saw you for the first time. Then, this only leads to my eventual collapse when trying to tell her how I feel.
I've been an emotional wreck as of late. Due to college and many other things, I can't seem to have a consistent night of peace. One night I may feel great, then the next time I feel like just wanna climb into my bed and drift off.
Going to church today felt really different. I can't quite explain it, how surprizing. I felt like I needed to do something, do something to help people. I've been told that this is the desire that one must have in make it in the medical field. I thought about sleeping and thought about what a small but powerful comfort it is to sleep at peace. Many people around the world due to natural disaster, political conflict, or other reasons just aren't able to know a single night of peace. Everyone should be able to know what peaceful sleep is like, and I wish I could find a way to grant this simple thing to people.
"My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone"