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ok well last night at church it was so great. we talked about loving god is loveing people. and i realized that i dont genuinely love anybody and that all these ppl who say they love me could never love me the way god does. i think i know why im so wraped up in guys.. well bc i dont really have alot of ppl who give me attention, but these guys give me the kind of attention ithink i want when really its not htat at all. i know now that god is the only one for me and i have a long way to go with my walk. i decided taht i really like kyle. even though i loved jeff and sarah im over it. on another note. i am so furious that steve gaines is leaving i dont understand!! im so mad!! uhhhh... somebody told me that he was gonna get like a hundred thousands dollars more or something like that. i thought church wasnt supposed to be about the money?!? im not sure if its true so im not gonna juss tell everybody. but i mean i feel like nobody is even at church for god anymore! i did get shae to go to church with me which was a shock and im very happy i did. this weekend i think im gonna sit at home bc i have nothing to do.. so somebody just call me. eww im alergic to my glasses and behind my ear is all broken out in a rash! its so gross! yuck! and it itches like crazy! but i guess thats alll im very hurt right now and need someone to talk to so somebody call me cuz i really dont know who to call.