Not That it Matters.

[the_turtle]

Parents are fighting. Work is slow. I feel like my mind is collapsing on itself. There are a lot of things I've been wanting to do.. but the motivation is just GONE. It's like I just come home every day and piss the night away until it's almost midnight. Honestly. I don't know where the last few hours have gone. I have no direction. I have no focus. It literally feels like someone is strangling me emotionally. I don't know what it means or why.. I just feel dead right now..

And it's not like I always feel this way. When I talk to my friends.. I don't feel like this. But when I'm alone I just feel broken..

I need to find myself.