happy days
i'm all about lyric adaptations for your own means.
listen to the sound of the underground as it calls out your name
and then one voice says "i have much more to offer"
the true heroes without the microphones start storming the stage
now, that's meant to be about the lack of women within punk bands. good topic, No Trigger lads. well done. but to me those words are about the cluster of amazing people i know, including myself, too fucking terrified to get what it is they really want out of life, and how it only takes one person to stand up and be counted for the rest of us to follow suit. i'm also more than well aware that that's absolute bullshit and that it'd never happen in a million years. especially with me and my ability to ruin things for myself before they ever actually get off the ground. if i'm ever gonna stumble into a scenario where i'm actually happy*, it's gonna be just that - an accidental stumble, because when i try, as in actively try, i balls everything right up. and i know that's the case with other people too. but i can still believe in the ideal of what those words mean to me.
*yesyes great, nay the BEST, friends, amazing job, fun lifestyle etc etc - it'll never be enough. i could not have any mates, a meaningless job and do nothing with my time, but if i had someone i'd still feel more together than i do now. it's just the ungrateful, pitiful little bastard of a man i am.
and for anyone that saw my Myspace bulletin about Compass being dead. here's why:
East Date - original venue gave the date to someone else, because i was waiting on Fastlane to confirm as headliners. they still never have either way, so i sacked them off. found another venue, but still waiting on them and another possible headline band to confirm availability. basically, this date, because of other people being slack, still has nothing.
West Date - booked venue in January. set about finding indie headliner. Dartz! were up for it, but turned out to not be available. booked in Winterkids, which i was really excited about. then the venue told me last week that they'd accidentally double booked the date with some band that are being flown over from Mexico that week to showcase (or something). their flights are booked and paid for, so the venue, whilst grovelling and offering me other dates (which kinda defeat the purpose of this) had to give them to the people that are paying a few thousand quid to get to the show. now, i don't know any other West London venues to approach, and that's not the point. i was really excited about one of the gigs being free entry and a matinee show, and that just can't happen any more. so this has been cancelled.
South Date - this is still go. this is Ian's birthday and will definitely happen, even if i lose some money in the process of doing it. that'll just be my present to him, and i might ask anyone that hasn't travelled too far to it to throw in a bit more to contribute. lineup, as it stands is:
The Steal
Failsafe (tbc)
Milloy (VERY tbc)
The Dauntless ELite
Heroic Doses
The Quarry
plus free BBQ
£5 adv
June 3rd 2007
The Windmill, Brixton
that'll be literally good times.
North Date - original venue booked me in and took a holding deposit off me. then were "oh, we understand you're doing a four day thing, but we want to do a two day event, can you please switch your entire thing to the following weekend?" NO I CANNOT AND I'LL BE AT FUCKING DOWNLOAD, YOU TWAT. and so i found another North venue, who, seeing that Compass was the best idea ever, bumped someone off the date to let me have it. and then today i found out that Tellison can't do it any more - not that they thought about telling me. so now i have no headliner for that.
so there you go. that's why the best thing i'll ever have done has gone right up the shitter. thank you, World. what the fuck did i ever do to you? i just try to do something brilliant and it all goes to bollocks because of, to be fair, everyone else. well fuck that.
:(
listen to the sound of the underground as it calls out your name
and then one voice says "i have much more to offer"
the true heroes without the microphones start storming the stage
now, that's meant to be about the lack of women within punk bands. good topic, No Trigger lads. well done. but to me those words are about the cluster of amazing people i know, including myself, too fucking terrified to get what it is they really want out of life, and how it only takes one person to stand up and be counted for the rest of us to follow suit. i'm also more than well aware that that's absolute bullshit and that it'd never happen in a million years. especially with me and my ability to ruin things for myself before they ever actually get off the ground. if i'm ever gonna stumble into a scenario where i'm actually happy*, it's gonna be just that - an accidental stumble, because when i try, as in actively try, i balls everything right up. and i know that's the case with other people too. but i can still believe in the ideal of what those words mean to me.
*yesyes great, nay the BEST, friends, amazing job, fun lifestyle etc etc - it'll never be enough. i could not have any mates, a meaningless job and do nothing with my time, but if i had someone i'd still feel more together than i do now. it's just the ungrateful, pitiful little bastard of a man i am.
and for anyone that saw my Myspace bulletin about Compass being dead. here's why:
East Date - original venue gave the date to someone else, because i was waiting on Fastlane to confirm as headliners. they still never have either way, so i sacked them off. found another venue, but still waiting on them and another possible headline band to confirm availability. basically, this date, because of other people being slack, still has nothing.
West Date - booked venue in January. set about finding indie headliner. Dartz! were up for it, but turned out to not be available. booked in Winterkids, which i was really excited about. then the venue told me last week that they'd accidentally double booked the date with some band that are being flown over from Mexico that week to showcase (or something). their flights are booked and paid for, so the venue, whilst grovelling and offering me other dates (which kinda defeat the purpose of this) had to give them to the people that are paying a few thousand quid to get to the show. now, i don't know any other West London venues to approach, and that's not the point. i was really excited about one of the gigs being free entry and a matinee show, and that just can't happen any more. so this has been cancelled.
South Date - this is still go. this is Ian's birthday and will definitely happen, even if i lose some money in the process of doing it. that'll just be my present to him, and i might ask anyone that hasn't travelled too far to it to throw in a bit more to contribute. lineup, as it stands is:
The Steal
Failsafe (tbc)
Milloy (VERY tbc)
The Dauntless ELite
Heroic Doses
The Quarry
plus free BBQ
£5 adv
June 3rd 2007
The Windmill, Brixton
that'll be literally good times.
North Date - original venue booked me in and took a holding deposit off me. then were "oh, we understand you're doing a four day thing, but we want to do a two day event, can you please switch your entire thing to the following weekend?" NO I CANNOT AND I'LL BE AT FUCKING DOWNLOAD, YOU TWAT. and so i found another North venue, who, seeing that Compass was the best idea ever, bumped someone off the date to let me have it. and then today i found out that Tellison can't do it any more - not that they thought about telling me. so now i have no headliner for that.
so there you go. that's why the best thing i'll ever have done has gone right up the shitter. thank you, World. what the fuck did i ever do to you? i just try to do something brilliant and it all goes to bollocks because of, to be fair, everyone else. well fuck that.
:(