damn....
First off, I am pooped!
So the Kentucky trip didnt work out. Thats ok, cuz we had Cleveland instead. It was fun. I needed it. I never get to leave this damn place. Last trip I went on was for fuckin' Grand Rapids, and that was for work. So I was way over due for this. Goods times, good times. I wish everybody could have been there today. Tom got hit on by our waiter at the House of Blues. We had "Hot Wheels" keeping us entertained at the Hard Rock Cafe. Thinking about it, is still making me laugh. I needed a good laugh and Cleveland helped me out in that department.
As for everything else...I have to realize all of this is going to take a long time to heal. Im not good in these positions. I never thought anything like this would happen. I really want to run now. Run like no other. I want it all to be a bad dream. I need a massage. I just need a movie night and someone to hold me and cuddle. Thats what I need. And, I need to spend some time with him. He and I still have to talk.