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lots of things happening. lots. there is tragedy, excitement, joy, and hope in equal measure.
my move is to commence this week. the keys will be in my hot little hand tomorrow. i have yet to make a substantial dent in the packing that needs to be done.
sage and i parted ways. i have been trying to conceive of a delicate, neutral way to put this, because i feel it is too personal and complex to wrap up in a journal entry. also, it is still raw and will be for some time. there have been many entries that were dedicated to the happiness i found in that relationship, and that is what should linger in cyberspace. i have a great support system of people who are available to me when i need someone to talk to about it, and for that i am thankful.
very recently, a friend lost one of the most important people in his life. his well-being concerns me, and the situation depresses me. i consider what it would be like, even with the current circumstances, what it would be like to lose someone like sage, a family member, or any of my friends so suddenly. it is a terrible thought, to just imagine. he is in my prayers, as are all of the people i care about.
thanksgiving was a lot of fun. my family visited - aunts, uncles, my cousin and my grandfather. my new roommate, nick, came as well, because his family is on the west coast, and we are happy to have strays at our holiday gatherings.
my family home, where my grandfather lives in fairfax, is being sold early next year. having lived there for roughly a year and a half as an adult, and being that that is the place my family has met to celebrate and mourn for my entire life, i am sure there will be a hole in my heart, and that i will be sad when i drive by and it has been replaced by new homes.
courtney, heather, myself, jill(?), and amandine are all gathering the weekend of the 9th in the nation's capitol. we are going to be shopping, eating, drinking, and generally flaunting our awesomeness for two days. it should be fun. what should we do while we are there?
courtney had a wildly successful autumnal cocktail party in her new apartment. some friendsters came to enjoy it, as well as some regulars, and all had a good time. i am looking forward to the next party, a holiday potluck - surprise, i'm drunk? - this month. i will be bringing a bottle peppermint schnapps as well as some aloo gobi.
i will be having surgery for dysplasia this month. i am not looking forward to it. i consider myself pretty tough, but it is frightening nonetheless. during the biopsy, i cramped a lot, so i can only imagine how the actual procedure will be. the instrument the doctor will be using is actually kind of cool. they remove the tissue with an electro-loop? like, a razor wire that is electrically charged made into a loop on the end of a rod. They basically remove the abnormal cells with a high-grade melon baller. unfortunately, i cannot do "it", wear tampons, or douche for a month - i have never douched, so i suppose i'm not missing out on much - and i will have to be checked for returning cells, like, five times within the next year. personally, i am not fond of "smears", but it cannot be helped. better a little discomfort in the prevention of things, than suffering with cancer and worse later on.
briefly: i had an interesting im experience with dj am - i think?, in roughly a year's time i hope to find myself as another country's countryman, roxy is still the cutest, my car is dirty on the outside, my hair is pristine and pokey, work is work, a friend's car got broken into by my apartment - another reason to look forward to a monitored garage, god, i can't think of anything else to write so i am going to post this already. <3.
my move is to commence this week. the keys will be in my hot little hand tomorrow. i have yet to make a substantial dent in the packing that needs to be done.
sage and i parted ways. i have been trying to conceive of a delicate, neutral way to put this, because i feel it is too personal and complex to wrap up in a journal entry. also, it is still raw and will be for some time. there have been many entries that were dedicated to the happiness i found in that relationship, and that is what should linger in cyberspace. i have a great support system of people who are available to me when i need someone to talk to about it, and for that i am thankful.
very recently, a friend lost one of the most important people in his life. his well-being concerns me, and the situation depresses me. i consider what it would be like, even with the current circumstances, what it would be like to lose someone like sage, a family member, or any of my friends so suddenly. it is a terrible thought, to just imagine. he is in my prayers, as are all of the people i care about.
thanksgiving was a lot of fun. my family visited - aunts, uncles, my cousin and my grandfather. my new roommate, nick, came as well, because his family is on the west coast, and we are happy to have strays at our holiday gatherings.
my family home, where my grandfather lives in fairfax, is being sold early next year. having lived there for roughly a year and a half as an adult, and being that that is the place my family has met to celebrate and mourn for my entire life, i am sure there will be a hole in my heart, and that i will be sad when i drive by and it has been replaced by new homes.
courtney, heather, myself, jill(?), and amandine are all gathering the weekend of the 9th in the nation's capitol. we are going to be shopping, eating, drinking, and generally flaunting our awesomeness for two days. it should be fun. what should we do while we are there?
courtney had a wildly successful autumnal cocktail party in her new apartment. some friendsters came to enjoy it, as well as some regulars, and all had a good time. i am looking forward to the next party, a holiday potluck - surprise, i'm drunk? - this month. i will be bringing a bottle peppermint schnapps as well as some aloo gobi.
i will be having surgery for dysplasia this month. i am not looking forward to it. i consider myself pretty tough, but it is frightening nonetheless. during the biopsy, i cramped a lot, so i can only imagine how the actual procedure will be. the instrument the doctor will be using is actually kind of cool. they remove the tissue with an electro-loop? like, a razor wire that is electrically charged made into a loop on the end of a rod. They basically remove the abnormal cells with a high-grade melon baller. unfortunately, i cannot do "it", wear tampons, or douche for a month - i have never douched, so i suppose i'm not missing out on much - and i will have to be checked for returning cells, like, five times within the next year. personally, i am not fond of "smears", but it cannot be helped. better a little discomfort in the prevention of things, than suffering with cancer and worse later on.
briefly: i had an interesting im experience with dj am - i think?, in roughly a year's time i hope to find myself as another country's countryman, roxy is still the cutest, my car is dirty on the outside, my hair is pristine and pokey, work is work, a friend's car got broken into by my apartment - another reason to look forward to a monitored garage, god, i can't think of anything else to write so i am going to post this already. <3.