streaming water out of my eyes like niagra falls

[the_third_nut]

gah i have to get this out. theres one person who i can tell this stuff too directly but ive already shared too much of my pain with him. so its going into mr livejournal.

for as long as ive known how to think, ive always been a huge dreamer. the problem is all my dreams cant possibly happen. i like to go to my own world and live there whenever i can, because the real world is shit. whenever i have to open up and really face the world, its never good. it hits me like a damn bus being throw at me. i go to my dreamworld for a sense of comfort. but whats it good for? every time the world hits me it hurts like shit. because i dont face it enough. i have to stop living in my dreams. i have to stop. or else, im gonna get hit really hard one day, and i might not be able to get up.

thank the lord for the people who care about me. my family, bryan, other friends, even Dude.

im tired of the restless nights thinking about you. you know who you are. i cant put up with this shit anymore. i just dont care.

i just dont care
-cinjin