So tired of this shit
I havent been sure of what to write in here lately. Not much in my life has changed. I still work at Comcast; making the world a safer place for retarded internet users. I am still married to the love of my life; Missy. Still playing WoW (although much less than I was). So when Missy and I were at breakfast this morning, I told her about my LJ writers block. That all changed later in the morning. A few minutes before I was about to go to bed, my Dad calls.
My Cousin Greg died.
I am getting so sick and tired of this "cosmic plan" bullshit. Today my Cousin dies. 3 months ago, was my Uncle's memorial. 2 years ago, I went to my Grandfather's memorial. "CAN THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE STOP DYING NOW?!?!?!"
And this is a Cousin that I am really close with too (not like some distant Cousin that I've only met like once or twice). And on top of that, he was only in his 40's. I dont know how it hapened yet. Apparently Heidi, his girlfriend, found him laying on the floor this morning.
Greg has 3 sisters, 2 children and both of his parents that he is leaving behind. Not to mention the rest of the family who is really close to him.
What the fuck....
Missy says that I have been distant today. Maybe I have been. But I dont think it's so wrong to be introspective for a bit. I am not shutting her out. As a matter of fact, I need her now more than ever.
And hearing my Dad's voice this morning when he told me is haunting me, even now. I dont know how much more that he can take. In less than 3 years, he loses his father, his brother, and one of his best friend and cousins. I could feel the pain pouring out of the phone, and it left me sick to my stomach.
I dont know how I feel right now. I dont think I have fully let it sink in yet. What I do know is that my heart goes out to the rest of my family while they have to deal with this.
I'm just fucking tired.
My Cousin Greg died.
I am getting so sick and tired of this "cosmic plan" bullshit. Today my Cousin dies. 3 months ago, was my Uncle's memorial. 2 years ago, I went to my Grandfather's memorial. "CAN THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE STOP DYING NOW?!?!?!"
And this is a Cousin that I am really close with too (not like some distant Cousin that I've only met like once or twice). And on top of that, he was only in his 40's. I dont know how it hapened yet. Apparently Heidi, his girlfriend, found him laying on the floor this morning.
Greg has 3 sisters, 2 children and both of his parents that he is leaving behind. Not to mention the rest of the family who is really close to him.
What the fuck....
Missy says that I have been distant today. Maybe I have been. But I dont think it's so wrong to be introspective for a bit. I am not shutting her out. As a matter of fact, I need her now more than ever.
And hearing my Dad's voice this morning when he told me is haunting me, even now. I dont know how much more that he can take. In less than 3 years, he loses his father, his brother, and one of his best friend and cousins. I could feel the pain pouring out of the phone, and it left me sick to my stomach.
I dont know how I feel right now. I dont think I have fully let it sink in yet. What I do know is that my heart goes out to the rest of my family while they have to deal with this.
I'm just fucking tired.