shit!

[the_swami]

I WISH.

I wish
I wish
upon a star
I wish
I wish
you weren't so far
I wish
I wish
that you were here
I wish
I wish
that i had nothing to fear
I wish
I wish
that i hadn't hurt you
I wish
I wish
my blood didn't run like glue
I wish
I wish
you weren't so far
I wish
I wish
upon a star

life, lately, as been shit. Suffice to say i'm a fucking dick head and deserve all i get.

last night i got drunk and depressed and tried self tattooing... i didn't like the result so i removed it with a scourer... now my hand is kinda sore....
as is my arm where a stanly trimmer happened to it...

You gave me your heart, pressed in a book.
Now all i can do is sit and look.
It lies there amongst the words you wrote,
And now my heart seems to float.
In a sea of bitter pain.
My soul burns with the shame.
I will love you for ever more
Untill death comes knocking on my door.
So many times i broke your trust
Succumbed and gave into lust.
Now i make these cuts upon my arm,
Drip Drip goes the blood, i've caused you such harm.
Bright red the lines that seem to seep,
Into my dreams while i sleep.

I love you more than life itself.
I placed your heart upon that shelf.
You kept mine near to your soul
Upon your lips i hear a scold.
Now i sit and contemplate days gone,
With out you they seem so forlorn.
When i think about laying you down to bed,
These bitter tears i do shed.
I remeber the times we had,
All that was, seems to make me sad.
I remeber the days back at sea,
When every thing seemed so happy and free.
I loved you once, i love you still,
love you for ever i still will.

kinda morose i know.. but most of it was written after drinking the better part of a bottle of jacks.... straight.

Hollow, Empty,
Gutted shell.
I fucking made,
Your life hell.