May 30, 2008 12:02
Saw the therapist last Wednesday. Talked about school and daddy issues. Outcome of the session? Let go of the daddy issues, and my self-confidence and self-esteem might improve.
Whenever I'm around Dad, I feel like I'm 7 all over again. He's just that intimidating and domineering. I've mentioned in previous posts about how he undermines my self-confidence all the times. Well, it turns out the voice in my head telling me I'm a failure, I can't do anything right, etc., is actually Dad's voice. If I stop listening to that voice, and accept the reality that I will never get what I need or want from him, I should be doing a lot better. At least that's what the therapist said.
Worth a try.
The cable guy is coming over at home on Monday to hook me up with the Internet. FUCKIN' AWESOME! He'll be coming over between 8 o'clock in the morning and 5 o'clock in the afternoon. Typical. But hey, I can put up with that because I'm gonna be connected, yo.
I had another sexual dream. Once again, I was the bottom and being dominated by a dark-haired, slightly macho guy. Geez. What's up with that?