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Uh...self explanatory, yes? I just need to get some stuff down, so ignore and skip if you don't like rants.
And the rant starts....now!
Well, here it is again. Once more I am struck with that feeling of disgust at myself. All because of something I did. Again. I swore I wouldn't, but I didn't. I sicken myself sometimes, and I hate it. Its so bad even Razz ignores me most of the time, and I can't think straight for hours because of it. And yet, I still do it. Why? I don't know. I don't think I ever will.
Well, I could say that I know the reason, but then a part of my mind will push it away as just another excuse. Just one of many my mind comes up with. Ah, screw it. I want to say I should just accept it, but I know I never can. No matter how much advice I get, I feel the same. Disgusted and sick to my stomach. Just another night.
Then there are my paranoias. I've done enough rants for me, its almost like I'm a machine when I talk about them. The same words come out time after time. They just won't stop haunting my mind. They won't let me just live my effing life. I'M SICK OF IT. Why can't I just feel normal for once in my life? I don't think I'll ever know. I don't think I'll ever care. I just want them gone. And I don't want people giving the same advice over and over again, if it doesn't work after that many tries, its never going to work.
I hope they eventually leave me alone.
Now, for this. You don't have to talk that loud!! When I can hear you from my room, and get annoyed by the sound of your voice, you are talking TOO EFFING LOUD. Drives my crazy. I have to turn my TV or music up to drown out the sound of your voice.
And now for the silly shouts and rants, if you are looking for something that does not equal srs face, these are the rants for you.xD
What the hell?! I've been working this puzzle to CALM DOWN. For several hours. Only to find I have pieces missing?! *headdesk* Gah, I hate that. It'll be there at the back of my mind for the rest of the night, the fact that I can't actually finish the puzzle. Damn, that sucks.
Screw you, Zelda game. As if I'm not annoyed enough with the cartoon graphics, the reason I don't play the game that often, and now this. I completely forgot this part of the game, and this is why I am mad at the dog for eating my memory card when we first got her. Where I was past this. Making me run, well...sail, around the entire ocean to get something, then find I have to go somewhere else first. Then I have to go somewhere else to get there. Its too confusing. Thats why I switched to the puzzle.
And you, other Zelda game... I adore you. I adore your graphics. I adore the plotline, and most everything about you. Then you pull this. I'm horrible with this stuff. Getting the thing to the entrance while avoiding something? Not fun. Not for me. I don't remember why I'm stuck on my other file, but I'm too lazy to check...-_-;
Of course, you are going to play cards. Which means you are going to go get drunk and come back late in the afternoon. While I'm home alone because she is going to Toledo. Joy. As if I'm not bored enough with Katie on the mission trip. No one to text or talk to....Well, except KAthy. But you cannot hold an intelligent conversation with her, so I think I'll pass. *sigh* Maybe my Guitar Hero obsession will come back overnight...
Well, at least you cheer me up, Monty Python. *singing quietly* Every sperm is sacred, every sperm is good...
Oh! Or I could watch Black Books....hm...tempting....
Well, so ends my rants.^^;; Ha...I feel a lot better now.
And the rant starts....now!
Well, here it is again. Once more I am struck with that feeling of disgust at myself. All because of something I did. Again. I swore I wouldn't, but I didn't. I sicken myself sometimes, and I hate it. Its so bad even Razz ignores me most of the time, and I can't think straight for hours because of it. And yet, I still do it. Why? I don't know. I don't think I ever will.
Well, I could say that I know the reason, but then a part of my mind will push it away as just another excuse. Just one of many my mind comes up with. Ah, screw it. I want to say I should just accept it, but I know I never can. No matter how much advice I get, I feel the same. Disgusted and sick to my stomach. Just another night.
Then there are my paranoias. I've done enough rants for me, its almost like I'm a machine when I talk about them. The same words come out time after time. They just won't stop haunting my mind. They won't let me just live my effing life. I'M SICK OF IT. Why can't I just feel normal for once in my life? I don't think I'll ever know. I don't think I'll ever care. I just want them gone. And I don't want people giving the same advice over and over again, if it doesn't work after that many tries, its never going to work.
I hope they eventually leave me alone.
Now, for this. You don't have to talk that loud!! When I can hear you from my room, and get annoyed by the sound of your voice, you are talking TOO EFFING LOUD. Drives my crazy. I have to turn my TV or music up to drown out the sound of your voice.
And now for the silly shouts and rants, if you are looking for something that does not equal srs face, these are the rants for you.xD
What the hell?! I've been working this puzzle to CALM DOWN. For several hours. Only to find I have pieces missing?! *headdesk* Gah, I hate that. It'll be there at the back of my mind for the rest of the night, the fact that I can't actually finish the puzzle. Damn, that sucks.
Screw you, Zelda game. As if I'm not annoyed enough with the cartoon graphics, the reason I don't play the game that often, and now this. I completely forgot this part of the game, and this is why I am mad at the dog for eating my memory card when we first got her. Where I was past this. Making me run, well...sail, around the entire ocean to get something, then find I have to go somewhere else first. Then I have to go somewhere else to get there. Its too confusing. Thats why I switched to the puzzle.
And you, other Zelda game... I adore you. I adore your graphics. I adore the plotline, and most everything about you. Then you pull this. I'm horrible with this stuff. Getting the thing to the entrance while avoiding something? Not fun. Not for me. I don't remember why I'm stuck on my other file, but I'm too lazy to check...-_-;
Of course, you are going to play cards. Which means you are going to go get drunk and come back late in the afternoon. While I'm home alone because she is going to Toledo. Joy. As if I'm not bored enough with Katie on the mission trip. No one to text or talk to....Well, except KAthy. But you cannot hold an intelligent conversation with her, so I think I'll pass. *sigh* Maybe my Guitar Hero obsession will come back overnight...
Well, at least you cheer me up, Monty Python. *singing quietly* Every sperm is sacred, every sperm is good...
Oh! Or I could watch Black Books....hm...tempting....
Well, so ends my rants.^^;; Ha...I feel a lot better now.