2009 in review
It's been a long hiatus from writing and I've been thinking about picking it up again. Looking back at the end of the year has been something of a regular tradition so now is just as good as any time. 2009 sucked, much as did 2008, 2007 and so on. We did sell and receive payment for the timeshare. We blew threw it leaving me struggling to pay the 2008 taxes and I expect the 2009 taxes to be crippling. Hentai had to endure surgery on two separate hernias and one "scopy". His anxiety levels have been accordingly strained due to his phobias. He has recently had a cough for about 2 months which may or may not be clearing up and his stomach continues to be a problem we can't diagnose.
Hentai's first mental health doctor, a psychotherapist, was useless and wasted our time; his second doctor, strictly a psychiatrist, diagnosed him as bi-polar at the least and has recommended he receive therapy as well when finances allow. Hentai has also recently said that he thinks he has an anxiety disorder; this may or may not be accurate but since he stated as much he has either been acting it out more (self-fulfilling prophecy) or the occasions when it strikes have become more obvious, I'm not sure which. He is on a mood stabilizer which he may have forgotten to take on two occasions, both of which had severe emotional consequences. He is trying but I don't even want to think about the number of times I've wanted to kick him out for treating me that way. Still the improvements he has made have been a relief and we still share some genuinely happy moments.
My relationship with mom is fair. She is of course very worried about my relationship with Hentai but has been supportive. Dad and Hentai will never get a long because of opposing political views and the fact that both like to have the last word. RedL came to the Latin Penguin's wedding with multicolored hair and spaghetti string dresses that showed off her somewhat faded tattoos and did not seem interested in monitoring her kids; this did not improve my opinion of her but then again very little will. Tattoo penguin joined the navy. The NAVY! *sigh* well hopefully that will work out better than the past career ideas. The Latin Penguin and Teal Diamond had a beautiful ceremony and have remained genuinely happy together. They don't visit mom as much which I think makes her a bit sad, but they are still newlyweds and deserve time together. I think I get along better with Teal Diamond now than I had expected which makes me happy. I still wish I had taken her and RedL on that shopping spree I promised but the money unfortunately came in during some of the darker parts of the year.
I had my surgery to shut down my baby factory. After 5 years of waiting I can safely say I will not have kids. It has been a relief in many ways and it seems to be a conclusive way of avoiding that demeaning "Oh you just don't want kids now" BS speech people like to put out without thinking.
Taz died. I still miss him. And I still struggle with the way he died though there is nothing to be done for it. Tansy also passed; at least I know what was wrong with her. Zeplin is also gone and the fish Hentai has now don't replace him by a long shot.
The new boss turned at work. I don't know how to deal with him and no one will give a clear answer to "what is my job description". But that happened after I went ahead into the Education Reimbursement program so I'm stuck until December next year. I finish my last class in the spring. I can attend a ceremony after the current class is done so I'll have the paper well in advance of the reunion. I'll be starting a lot of projects and getting a second job to start paying down debts before the student loans come due shortly after though so hopefully it won’t be too bad paying off $60k of loans.
Hentai and I are moving into the same community as Latin Penguin and Teal Diamond. We move at the end of January and will finally be done with Sacramento. Just hope we don't bring the roaches with us in the boxes. I've got a lot of hope tied into this move; fresh starts tend to bring that out of people.
I've got a lot of hope for 2010 too. New home, freedom from the academic strain, several debts to be paid before the year is out and promises from Hentai to get a full time job one way or the other which means less financial burden on me and more opportunities for both of us. 2009 has been one of the worst years of my life, on par with some I shared with Magus. I'm glad to see it end.
Hentai's first mental health doctor, a psychotherapist, was useless and wasted our time; his second doctor, strictly a psychiatrist, diagnosed him as bi-polar at the least and has recommended he receive therapy as well when finances allow. Hentai has also recently said that he thinks he has an anxiety disorder; this may or may not be accurate but since he stated as much he has either been acting it out more (self-fulfilling prophecy) or the occasions when it strikes have become more obvious, I'm not sure which. He is on a mood stabilizer which he may have forgotten to take on two occasions, both of which had severe emotional consequences. He is trying but I don't even want to think about the number of times I've wanted to kick him out for treating me that way. Still the improvements he has made have been a relief and we still share some genuinely happy moments.
My relationship with mom is fair. She is of course very worried about my relationship with Hentai but has been supportive. Dad and Hentai will never get a long because of opposing political views and the fact that both like to have the last word. RedL came to the Latin Penguin's wedding with multicolored hair and spaghetti string dresses that showed off her somewhat faded tattoos and did not seem interested in monitoring her kids; this did not improve my opinion of her but then again very little will. Tattoo penguin joined the navy. The NAVY! *sigh* well hopefully that will work out better than the past career ideas. The Latin Penguin and Teal Diamond had a beautiful ceremony and have remained genuinely happy together. They don't visit mom as much which I think makes her a bit sad, but they are still newlyweds and deserve time together. I think I get along better with Teal Diamond now than I had expected which makes me happy. I still wish I had taken her and RedL on that shopping spree I promised but the money unfortunately came in during some of the darker parts of the year.
I had my surgery to shut down my baby factory. After 5 years of waiting I can safely say I will not have kids. It has been a relief in many ways and it seems to be a conclusive way of avoiding that demeaning "Oh you just don't want kids now" BS speech people like to put out without thinking.
Taz died. I still miss him. And I still struggle with the way he died though there is nothing to be done for it. Tansy also passed; at least I know what was wrong with her. Zeplin is also gone and the fish Hentai has now don't replace him by a long shot.
The new boss turned at work. I don't know how to deal with him and no one will give a clear answer to "what is my job description". But that happened after I went ahead into the Education Reimbursement program so I'm stuck until December next year. I finish my last class in the spring. I can attend a ceremony after the current class is done so I'll have the paper well in advance of the reunion. I'll be starting a lot of projects and getting a second job to start paying down debts before the student loans come due shortly after though so hopefully it won’t be too bad paying off $60k of loans.
Hentai and I are moving into the same community as Latin Penguin and Teal Diamond. We move at the end of January and will finally be done with Sacramento. Just hope we don't bring the roaches with us in the boxes. I've got a lot of hope tied into this move; fresh starts tend to bring that out of people.
I've got a lot of hope for 2010 too. New home, freedom from the academic strain, several debts to be paid before the year is out and promises from Hentai to get a full time job one way or the other which means less financial burden on me and more opportunities for both of us. 2009 has been one of the worst years of my life, on par with some I shared with Magus. I'm glad to see it end.