I hate awkward silences..
I know a lot of people. Do you understand that? I mean...I don't talk to them very often, I don't keep in touch very well, but I know a lot of people. I won't remember their name, hell, I forget Amanda's name sometimes. And I hate it. Really.
I love knowing people, seeing them somewhere and being able to say, "Hey, I know that person." But, what's the point of knowing and remembering someone if they don't know you? If they don't remember you?
It...pisses me off how I am. I mean that. Fully. I am sooo very pissed off at myself almost all of the time. Yeah, I don't let people know about it, but I am almost always pissed off at myself.
I don't like myself very much, ya know? I'm an asshole. People can say otherwise, but I am.
So, think about it. I have friends, who I talk to regularly. I have...people I know from theatre. I talk to them..ONLY AT THEATRE. If we call ourselves friends, then what is the point of not ever talking to each other? I have people I know from youth group, who I only see at youth group. Or at church. And when we talk..? Awkward silences. Almost all the time. Okay, so, maybe with Johnathan and all the other chicks from youth group I have awkward silences. I'm pretty good with talking to guys.
What's the point of saying we are friends when we don't keep in touch? What is it? Why?
Why don't I make an effort to be friends with someone? I just...am I lazy? Or am I just rude?
I hate it when I see people that I know don't like me, and they hug me and smile. They laugh and try to make conversation and then walk away, still hating me.
But I am just like that. Okay, so I don't talk to people I hate. I think that's just idiotic. But I know there are people that I don't know, that I hug and smile fakely, and I wonder...Why aren't I better friends with them? Why am I hugging them if we aren't good friends?
I have always prided myself of being different. Insane. Individual.
But I'm not. Plenty of people have my same views. Plenty of people have my shirts and pants and write on themselves and laugh and make jokes and listen to comedians and love theatre and want to be different.
I'm just like everyone else. Rude. Mean. Fake. Lonely. Wanting. Needing. Hoping. Dreaming. Angry. Angsty. Curious. Stressed. Rejected.
I want a comment. From everyone. Anyone. Someone who hasn't commented in a while. Say anything you want about me.
Tell me what you dislike about me. Tell me what you like about me. Tell me what you really think about how I am.
Just leave a comment and say anything.
I love knowing people, seeing them somewhere and being able to say, "Hey, I know that person." But, what's the point of knowing and remembering someone if they don't know you? If they don't remember you?
It...pisses me off how I am. I mean that. Fully. I am sooo very pissed off at myself almost all of the time. Yeah, I don't let people know about it, but I am almost always pissed off at myself.
I don't like myself very much, ya know? I'm an asshole. People can say otherwise, but I am.
So, think about it. I have friends, who I talk to regularly. I have...people I know from theatre. I talk to them..ONLY AT THEATRE. If we call ourselves friends, then what is the point of not ever talking to each other? I have people I know from youth group, who I only see at youth group. Or at church. And when we talk..? Awkward silences. Almost all the time. Okay, so, maybe with Johnathan and all the other chicks from youth group I have awkward silences. I'm pretty good with talking to guys.
What's the point of saying we are friends when we don't keep in touch? What is it? Why?
Why don't I make an effort to be friends with someone? I just...am I lazy? Or am I just rude?
I hate it when I see people that I know don't like me, and they hug me and smile. They laugh and try to make conversation and then walk away, still hating me.
But I am just like that. Okay, so I don't talk to people I hate. I think that's just idiotic. But I know there are people that I don't know, that I hug and smile fakely, and I wonder...Why aren't I better friends with them? Why am I hugging them if we aren't good friends?
I have always prided myself of being different. Insane. Individual.
But I'm not. Plenty of people have my same views. Plenty of people have my shirts and pants and write on themselves and laugh and make jokes and listen to comedians and love theatre and want to be different.
I'm just like everyone else. Rude. Mean. Fake. Lonely. Wanting. Needing. Hoping. Dreaming. Angry. Angsty. Curious. Stressed. Rejected.
I want a comment. From everyone. Anyone. Someone who hasn't commented in a while. Say anything you want about me.
Tell me what you dislike about me. Tell me what you like about me. Tell me what you really think about how I am.
Just leave a comment and say anything.