rotten
So the past few days ive just felt bad. its not like things are all that bad but they just seem to be adding up. i moved into my apartment. its cute, i like it. but ive had some roomate issues (her dog and the parking space mostly) and its just wierd living with someone who i dont really know. and having to worry about rent is enough to put me over the edge.
i started a new job. its at a fancy lingiere store in carmel. it pays well and the hours are good. its alittle wierd having to fit rich carmel types for bras and panites. the owner is a little strange. i really dont feel like she likes me and that makes it hard to be the only person working with her. if i attpemt to make small talk she just kinda laughs appropriatly. just makes me feel awkward. and i showed up 5 mins late and it was just horrible having to face her.
my other job, the nanny job, which i have been at for 6 months, is coming up for review. my schedual is chaning cause of classes and so i cant work the same amount of hours. so they had all thier notes out about the topic when i was working today. first i find out that ive worked there the longest (by 5 months), i work the most hours, and i make the least per hour. second, there were a list of pros and cons. now granted it didnt say what the situation was but the last con was "how to handle liz?" i just have no idea what to make of that. handle me? what do they mean? it just made me feel extra shitty finding that. i think they noticed that they left that info out while i was there alone and now it is just awkward around there.
things with trevor are slightly complicated. hes angry cause i can go out and drink and he cant. we have our good moments but we have our bad moments too. he just wants us to be so serious and im just not there. but i just cant make myself tell him no. its my "good on paper relationship".
anyways, i have two 12hr work days a head of me. so i'll shut up now
i started a new job. its at a fancy lingiere store in carmel. it pays well and the hours are good. its alittle wierd having to fit rich carmel types for bras and panites. the owner is a little strange. i really dont feel like she likes me and that makes it hard to be the only person working with her. if i attpemt to make small talk she just kinda laughs appropriatly. just makes me feel awkward. and i showed up 5 mins late and it was just horrible having to face her.
my other job, the nanny job, which i have been at for 6 months, is coming up for review. my schedual is chaning cause of classes and so i cant work the same amount of hours. so they had all thier notes out about the topic when i was working today. first i find out that ive worked there the longest (by 5 months), i work the most hours, and i make the least per hour. second, there were a list of pros and cons. now granted it didnt say what the situation was but the last con was "how to handle liz?" i just have no idea what to make of that. handle me? what do they mean? it just made me feel extra shitty finding that. i think they noticed that they left that info out while i was there alone and now it is just awkward around there.
things with trevor are slightly complicated. hes angry cause i can go out and drink and he cant. we have our good moments but we have our bad moments too. he just wants us to be so serious and im just not there. but i just cant make myself tell him no. its my "good on paper relationship".
anyways, i have two 12hr work days a head of me. so i'll shut up now