Over the years, I have come to learn that I have OCD tendencies that are not typical but most common or obvious in the form of graphomania and writing -- particularly editing can be problematic for me because of my obsessions and compulsions to edit and add and delete repeatedly until all I have is a mess that can never be finished. I repeat myself. I erase things and say them over and over again. It's never just right, and I get locked in a cycle that I can't stop that induces anxiety. It's not constant, but it happens.
There are several works that I think of as a huge mess -- and they are. Most are short story length passes of poetic prose that offer some kind of mini-manifesto or experience. But when I say they are a mess, I mean it. Paragraphs that don't go, were not edited out with other things taken out, paragraphs that continue ideas that were brought up before a tangent interrupted me.
I need help. I need someone who:
1) Wants to be a better friend of mine, and get to know me personally through reading stuff I've written, and will not share or repeat any of it anywhere.
2) Someone who is not offended by anything. I am very graphic -- if I am not vulgar, I address things that may trigger some people to have unpleasant experiences. It's generally not constant, but I do go there.
3) I need someone who reads a lot and knows how a passage is supposed to look and when something is wrong. I need someone who will be able to tell how my writing style works, what I was doing, and how to fix it or suggest how if flow is broken. I need someone who can identify an unnecessary bit of text that doesn't go, or one that is repeated, and which one is better to keep in the work.
4.) I need someone who is willing to do this because they like to read my writing, because I can't pay you -- although you would be credited if I ever found success.
5.) If you are a good writer, that's awesome, but if not... It's more important that you're an avid reader. But if you are a writer and if you can see a manner of expressing what I was going for by changing word order or suggesting something to add, I would LOVE that.
6.) If you like reading my writing but do not think you would be very thorough or good, it's okay to just read and make small comments. But if you would like to...
PLEASE
Read this draft:
https://www.facebook.com/notes/sh%C3%A6n-eduard-r%C3%B8wden/for-not-seeing-me-for-the-nigger-that-i-am/10150946173266368 Send an edited copy to serowden@gmail.com with all corrections, additions, or deleted content noted in red/bold/whatever you prefer.
If you do a good job, I will be your best friend and when you'rer ready, I will ask you to do the same thing to a work I can call nothing else than, "The Most Twacked Thing I Have Ever Written"
Thank you