How do I stop thinking about drugs?
This was a question asked of me by a LiveJournal user, and while I have not had the most amount of success, I definitely have come a long way. In high school I was known for always thinking about drugs, always doing and experimenting with lots of new drugs, knowing the most about all these different drugs. I posted in drug forums. I sold, lived, bought, and used drugs.
Now I can safely say that I do drugs occasionally. I limit almost all of my speech about drugs to this website, which I hardly use as often as I used to. In honestly, most of the occasions that I do drugs, with the exception of marijuana, I generally tend to think back on it and kind of wish it didn't happen, and I don't do it again for a while. And it's just because most of the time, I genuinely do not enjoy it.
But anyway, it was really around 2008 when this transformation started to happen. It was when I got arrested, but I firmly believe that the arrest had nothing to do with the change. It affected how much I smoked marijuana, yes, due to legal issue… But that's like a motorist when he passes a cop. He slows down for a minute… but then he speeds back up.
The change largely had to do with the realization that I didn't have any friends. I knew people that I sold drugs to, people who wanted me to find drugs, and people that used me to get drugs, and otherwise had nothing to do with me. At one point I began to talk to people who did not do drugs, and I realized I really enjoyed that they wanted to talk to and hang out with me. The first step is to distance yourself from people who only think about drugs. You have to realize that they aren't good friends. Their primary focus is to get high. And that works if that's what your primary focus is, but if you don't want it to be, you have to get away from such people…
Secondly, you can't just sit around bored with nothing to do with your life now that you don't do drugs so much. Even if you smoke weed once a week or whatever, that entire week where you do nothing… You shouldn't just be thinking, «Damn, how can I get some weed.» … or whatever… That's no way to live. You need a hobby or something you enjoy. For me it was video games, anime, fantasy things, and writing. I eventually started going to shows more often (which of course is home to lots of drinking, but I was never much of an alchy).
People that don't do drugs to enjoy those hobbies with would probably help, but honestly, for the most part not doing drugs is something I've engaged in alone. Find a girlfriend or boyfriend who doesn't use is probably one of the best things you can do for yourself, honestly… but that's at the point when you're pretty sure you can get by. You don't want to have a disasterous relationship that would just throw you back to drugs….
Which is of course what happened to me for a while.
Good luck.
I feel bad about writing about my girlfriend's friend and how cute she is. My girlfriend is very sweet and I shouldn't harbor such thoughts openly and callously. She is cute, but yeah. That's bad.