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So...my last few posts have been desperate pleas to anything or anyone for something, I'm not sure what.
They were depressing though.
Things are going well for me...despite the break-up. I'll be featured in a small art gallery in Ocala in February. So...that's good.
I'm still on a roller coaster. But I've never felt so optimistic about a break up. I still feel like things are going to work out somehow.
I still love him. I don't think I'll stop loving him for a LONG time. There will always be a place in my life for him...
Right now I know that Mat and I can't be together. I've got shit to do, you know? I let go of my dreams because my dream of being with him over shadowed everything else. Apparently...Fate has other plans for me.
I'm still optimistic though. Even though it looks unlikely...I feel like I KNOW that Mat and I will...well...I don't really want to say. I just... I feel good about this. Well...I feel good and bad. I mean, I feel like shit really, because there's no WAY that I wanted this. But I know I'm moving towards something good. Even if everything feels terrible right now...I'm still able to smile.
I miss him, you know? I will for a long time.
Things are rough. They'll get better.
I feel like things are rough for everyone right now. My sources are telling me that nearly every one is having a hard time.
Heh... I know this sounds weird, but I am so full of conviction and confidence. I feel like I'm seeing everything in my life and how it led me here and knowing all of that has made me aware of where I'm going and....I KNOW that everything is going to be ok. I feel like I know what is going to happen...loosely, you know? I know that at the end of my life, I'm going to be happy. I know I'm not always going to be afraid. I know that one day soon I'm going to have a real reason to smile.
For now, I'm just going to keep believing that Fate has something great in store for me.
They were depressing though.
Things are going well for me...despite the break-up. I'll be featured in a small art gallery in Ocala in February. So...that's good.
I'm still on a roller coaster. But I've never felt so optimistic about a break up. I still feel like things are going to work out somehow.
I still love him. I don't think I'll stop loving him for a LONG time. There will always be a place in my life for him...
Right now I know that Mat and I can't be together. I've got shit to do, you know? I let go of my dreams because my dream of being with him over shadowed everything else. Apparently...Fate has other plans for me.
I'm still optimistic though. Even though it looks unlikely...I feel like I KNOW that Mat and I will...well...I don't really want to say. I just... I feel good about this. Well...I feel good and bad. I mean, I feel like shit really, because there's no WAY that I wanted this. But I know I'm moving towards something good. Even if everything feels terrible right now...I'm still able to smile.
I miss him, you know? I will for a long time.
Things are rough. They'll get better.
I feel like things are rough for everyone right now. My sources are telling me that nearly every one is having a hard time.
Heh... I know this sounds weird, but I am so full of conviction and confidence. I feel like I'm seeing everything in my life and how it led me here and knowing all of that has made me aware of where I'm going and....I KNOW that everything is going to be ok. I feel like I know what is going to happen...loosely, you know? I know that at the end of my life, I'm going to be happy. I know I'm not always going to be afraid. I know that one day soon I'm going to have a real reason to smile.
For now, I'm just going to keep believing that Fate has something great in store for me.