the one on random musings
it's been one hell of a hectic ride into the year. and it's only three months since.
on the work front, i've been totally swamped with work. presentations, trainings, administrative duties and of course, clinical work. have found myself waking up on some mornings and actually dreading going to work. now, for the uninitiated, i love my job. i never have much of a problem going to work. well, almost never, considering how i would oversleep on some days, but NEVER had i not wanted to go off to work. the expectations have been pushed to a higher level, the stress to perform at optimal level, the stress of handling interpersonal relationships in the office, understanding the fragility of people relationships and how people change, no matter how hard you hope that they don't.
and now i've got an intern stuck to me for the next couple of weeks. double the stress, half the time for work, zero time for other things.
juggling three units this semester is really tough. just keeping up with the studying load each week is like a never-ending marathon. am currently back-logged on a thick pile of readings, behind estimated time on writing assignments and wondering why on earth my lecturer didn't get back to me after i emailed him thrice. grr.
am extremely tired with all these happenings in my life. and yes, i'm a typical type a personality. i need to do things fast and efficient, and cannot tolerate the idea that i have so many things left undone. i need more than twenty-fours a day, and much much more energy and lesser sleep in order to get through all of these, while keeping myself sane!
which i guess is also the very reason why i was pissed off at some colleagues the other day. just cannot understand why people cannot priortize and get what's necessary done first before moving onto other things. and why my intern seems to lack initiative in everything she does. if i have to kick you before you take action, i might as well save up the energy and do it myself, which i'm perfectly capable of doing and doing a perfect job too. but i cannot do that and it's practically killing me to restrain myself from doing everything myself in my own way.
have not been taking cabs to work recently (save money!!). realized that it was actually pretty fun to see the same people at the same time, at the same bus stop, taking the same bus to the interchange, then boarding the train at the same door, alighting at the same train station, before walking off in opposite directions. the little girl who alights two bus stops after me, the boy who turns up his music so loudly that the entire bus can share his music, the guy who is fully capable of sleeping while standing without falling, and the old couple who hold hands while crossing the road.
suddenly getting very tired. tired of working and studying and just........being tired.
on the work front, i've been totally swamped with work. presentations, trainings, administrative duties and of course, clinical work. have found myself waking up on some mornings and actually dreading going to work. now, for the uninitiated, i love my job. i never have much of a problem going to work. well, almost never, considering how i would oversleep on some days, but NEVER had i not wanted to go off to work. the expectations have been pushed to a higher level, the stress to perform at optimal level, the stress of handling interpersonal relationships in the office, understanding the fragility of people relationships and how people change, no matter how hard you hope that they don't.
and now i've got an intern stuck to me for the next couple of weeks. double the stress, half the time for work, zero time for other things.
juggling three units this semester is really tough. just keeping up with the studying load each week is like a never-ending marathon. am currently back-logged on a thick pile of readings, behind estimated time on writing assignments and wondering why on earth my lecturer didn't get back to me after i emailed him thrice. grr.
am extremely tired with all these happenings in my life. and yes, i'm a typical type a personality. i need to do things fast and efficient, and cannot tolerate the idea that i have so many things left undone. i need more than twenty-fours a day, and much much more energy and lesser sleep in order to get through all of these, while keeping myself sane!
which i guess is also the very reason why i was pissed off at some colleagues the other day. just cannot understand why people cannot priortize and get what's necessary done first before moving onto other things. and why my intern seems to lack initiative in everything she does. if i have to kick you before you take action, i might as well save up the energy and do it myself, which i'm perfectly capable of doing and doing a perfect job too. but i cannot do that and it's practically killing me to restrain myself from doing everything myself in my own way.
have not been taking cabs to work recently (save money!!). realized that it was actually pretty fun to see the same people at the same time, at the same bus stop, taking the same bus to the interchange, then boarding the train at the same door, alighting at the same train station, before walking off in opposite directions. the little girl who alights two bus stops after me, the boy who turns up his music so loudly that the entire bus can share his music, the guy who is fully capable of sleeping while standing without falling, and the old couple who hold hands while crossing the road.
suddenly getting very tired. tired of working and studying and just........being tired.