Well, hello there, sparse LJ friends and users.
I shouldn't really talk because I haven't written on here for a few months now, but I feel it's time to update and do a little venting.
Senior Year. Let me start off by saying that it is already SO much better than junior year. For one thing, I legitimately enjoy all of my classes, which has never been the case for me. It's real nice.
Since I never posted it, here's my schedule
A1: MT // P-sem
A2: AP English
A3: AP Gov
A4: Ecology
B1: Late arrival // Health Issues
B2: Western Civ
B3: A Cappella
B4: French
Even though I love my schedule and everything I've got going for me, this whole college thing is starting to freak me out. Just a little bit. And by a little bit, I mean a lot. I've always wanted to have my college experience somewhere far away from home, at some small, private liberal arts school where I can get a quality education. And call me a pessimist, but that logically is just not going to happen. I'm not exactly worried about getting into schools, it's more of the whole money thing. Yes, there are scholarships, but they are all highly competitive, and there are so many people out there trying to get them. It's not because I don't think I'm intelligent or talented, I just don't think I'll be able to fund my education from scholarships. And then there's loans...but those eventually need to be paid off, which means I'll have to work, which poses the question, will I ever get to grad school? If I blow all of my money on my undergrad education, then I won't be able to go to grad school, or I'll have to put it off for a few years. There's so many factors, and it's freaking me out.
I used to be extremely oppossed to going to an in-state school like U of O, but the more I think about it, I really wouldn't mind. Every time I've been down to Eugene, I love it, and the campus is nice, and the academics are good. U of O has a top notch journalism school. That could be a good thing for me. I think I could have a good, traditional college experience there. But then I wonder if I'll get there and think I sold myself short...I don't know. I think about my future way too much. It's been consuming my thoughts lately. And not just future as in college, I mean life future. What the fuck am I going to do? I have lots of ideas, and I know it will all come together eventually, and that most people in college don't even know what they're going to do, but it scares me. All I know is that I don't want to have a monotonous life with a little cubicle job, a home in the suburds, soccer games every weekend, yadda yadda yadda. I wonder how many people have said that same thing and end up that way.
On the other hand, my present life is going really well. I'm enjoying my senior year, and it's already moving way too fast. I got my sister's car, a 1995 Nissan Pathfinder, and I love it with all of my heart. I'm still thinking of a name, but I know it'll come to me. Musical theatre is going well. We're on the verge of starting to think of themes and songs and all of that good stuff. I feel like we've pretty much exhausted all of the good themes, because I really can't think of anything. Nonetheless, I'm excited to see how it turns out, and I love all of the younglings in my class. They're pretty presh. It's odd being the oldest.
So I think I've milked this entry for all it's worth.
Hope everyone's having a lovely Sunday afternoon. I should really start working on my essay...after I eat.
SEEE YAAA LAteRRRRRR!!!
Senior Year. Let me start off by saying that it is already SO much better than junior year. For one thing, I legitimately enjoy all of my classes, which has never been the case for me. It's real nice.
Since I never posted it, here's my schedule
A1: MT // P-sem
A2: AP English
A3: AP Gov
A4: Ecology
B1: Late arrival // Health Issues
B2: Western Civ
B3: A Cappella
B4: French
Even though I love my schedule and everything I've got going for me, this whole college thing is starting to freak me out. Just a little bit. And by a little bit, I mean a lot. I've always wanted to have my college experience somewhere far away from home, at some small, private liberal arts school where I can get a quality education. And call me a pessimist, but that logically is just not going to happen. I'm not exactly worried about getting into schools, it's more of the whole money thing. Yes, there are scholarships, but they are all highly competitive, and there are so many people out there trying to get them. It's not because I don't think I'm intelligent or talented, I just don't think I'll be able to fund my education from scholarships. And then there's loans...but those eventually need to be paid off, which means I'll have to work, which poses the question, will I ever get to grad school? If I blow all of my money on my undergrad education, then I won't be able to go to grad school, or I'll have to put it off for a few years. There's so many factors, and it's freaking me out.
I used to be extremely oppossed to going to an in-state school like U of O, but the more I think about it, I really wouldn't mind. Every time I've been down to Eugene, I love it, and the campus is nice, and the academics are good. U of O has a top notch journalism school. That could be a good thing for me. I think I could have a good, traditional college experience there. But then I wonder if I'll get there and think I sold myself short...I don't know. I think about my future way too much. It's been consuming my thoughts lately. And not just future as in college, I mean life future. What the fuck am I going to do? I have lots of ideas, and I know it will all come together eventually, and that most people in college don't even know what they're going to do, but it scares me. All I know is that I don't want to have a monotonous life with a little cubicle job, a home in the suburds, soccer games every weekend, yadda yadda yadda. I wonder how many people have said that same thing and end up that way.
On the other hand, my present life is going really well. I'm enjoying my senior year, and it's already moving way too fast. I got my sister's car, a 1995 Nissan Pathfinder, and I love it with all of my heart. I'm still thinking of a name, but I know it'll come to me. Musical theatre is going well. We're on the verge of starting to think of themes and songs and all of that good stuff. I feel like we've pretty much exhausted all of the good themes, because I really can't think of anything. Nonetheless, I'm excited to see how it turns out, and I love all of the younglings in my class. They're pretty presh. It's odd being the oldest.
So I think I've milked this entry for all it's worth.
Hope everyone's having a lovely Sunday afternoon. I should really start working on my essay...after I eat.
SEEE YAAA LAteRRRRRR!!!