its not always rainbows & butterflies, its compromise that moves us along..
The summer has officially come to an end, and starting school has begun. i am so freaking excited to be starting nursing school! i'm proud i've made it this far and im excited to learn and then start my career. the summer has been great, i was fortunate enough to travel to europe finally and Maine that i had never been to. I have done a lot of self discovery as well, and learned alot about my relationship with jonathan.
For sometime i feel like part of me has been stuck in the past. I know for my relationship's sake that is something that i just had to get over because it was detrimental. At times, i was just a miserable person for a reason i shouldnt be. Yes i had a good relationship with greg for the most part, but there were some awful memories tied to that to. and im done replaying that in my head. i realize things will never be the same and i can never go back to what i had... and i'm finally ok with that. i think i just got stuck on what i felt like i was missing out on... which im actually not missing out on anything except for the life i let pass me by by dwelling in the past. There is a difference between dwelling and simply remembering. and all i want to do is remember my past experiences, relationships, etc. for the good parts of them, but i dont need to let that interefere with my life in the present of future.
I feel like a stronger person because i feel like i can get on with my life and move forward with my relationship with jonathan. After almost breaking up yesterday, i feel 100000x stronger for him and know i do not want to lose what we have. i guess it takes almost losing something to realize how much it really means to you. and although the situation was completely ridiculous, its now in the past, we can move on and work on our flaws. and honestly, i couldnt be more excited about that. Sometimes you have to be the strong one, you have to pick up the pieces of yourself and your relationship. The fact is, i want it just as much as he does and thats what makes it work.
Im starting a new chapter of my life and totally excited about that...
"Look to the past and remember and smile... and maybe tonight i can breathe for awhile." -blink 182
For sometime i feel like part of me has been stuck in the past. I know for my relationship's sake that is something that i just had to get over because it was detrimental. At times, i was just a miserable person for a reason i shouldnt be. Yes i had a good relationship with greg for the most part, but there were some awful memories tied to that to. and im done replaying that in my head. i realize things will never be the same and i can never go back to what i had... and i'm finally ok with that. i think i just got stuck on what i felt like i was missing out on... which im actually not missing out on anything except for the life i let pass me by by dwelling in the past. There is a difference between dwelling and simply remembering. and all i want to do is remember my past experiences, relationships, etc. for the good parts of them, but i dont need to let that interefere with my life in the present of future.
I feel like a stronger person because i feel like i can get on with my life and move forward with my relationship with jonathan. After almost breaking up yesterday, i feel 100000x stronger for him and know i do not want to lose what we have. i guess it takes almost losing something to realize how much it really means to you. and although the situation was completely ridiculous, its now in the past, we can move on and work on our flaws. and honestly, i couldnt be more excited about that. Sometimes you have to be the strong one, you have to pick up the pieces of yourself and your relationship. The fact is, i want it just as much as he does and thats what makes it work.
Im starting a new chapter of my life and totally excited about that...
"Look to the past and remember and smile... and maybe tonight i can breathe for awhile." -blink 182