what if he did? what if he didnt? what if the world was made of pudding?

[the_shadows_lie]

i don't really have a lot to write about right now, but i noticed that it had been kind of a long time. i have had a lot on my mind lately, but i really don't know what to say. school is giving me a lot of trouble lately. i don't really know how to explain what happened, other than it's what always happens to me.

just a month ago i was so excited about school, and life in general, and was feeling pretty confident. now, not so much. it's not really that i've lost confidence so much as i've lost ambition, even interest. it seems that no matter how fascinated i am by a subject, i am pretty much guaranteed to lose interest in it within a year, at the very most. this phenomenon is causing me to really lose touch with my concept of identity. i can't quite articulate it now, because my brain is SO fried. i'm just frustrated with society in general.

thinking about moving to sweden to farm cranberries. i'm looking into it. maybe lingonberries, which i think is like the scandinavian version of cranberry? regardless, they eat a crapload of it over there. i think i am going to take a trip to sweden in the next year or so. soul journey! or something...

better start learning svenska. they all speak english over there pretty much but still. don't want to be a retard.



mmm cranberries.