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I've been through a lot lately.
But at this very moment.. I'm in a good place.
I love the fact that I've met some awesome people here.
I love that I have Evan as a support system.
I love that Thanksgiving is only like a month away so I can finally go home.
I really do miss a select few.
It's weird because people that I thought I'd miss, I don't.
And I miss some random people.
Whatever though, I don't care.
I love the campus.
I love the location of my room.
I love my floor.
I dont mind my classes.
But I really dont like being in a triple.
I cant take it.
Especially because were all totally different.
We dont really get along .. AT ALL.
I dont like the fact that I'm so far from my friends.
I went to Loyola this weekend to stay with Annie & got to see Gabby and Chris..
But other than them, I havent seen anyone.
I wish I could go see Lauren & Tricia ..
I miss my dog more than ANYTHING.
It's weird.
When I was coming here I was glad no one was gunna be here that I knew.
But really, I miss having someone who understands what I've been through ..
Someone who understands my past..
Someone who could help me through my current situation.
I really want someone to be here for me.
I almost feel like I have no one.
Really though, I have a bunch of friends here that care about me ..
They make me laugh, smile, they stand outside my window to make me feel better..
Their adorable.
I finally have a GROUP.
I'm normally a wanderer..
& yea I have different groups here but I have one main group.
Gabe, Sofia, Tre, Tim.
Love it.
I kinda wanna transfer though.
I dont want to be here anymore.
I was thrilled to be 25 minutes from my sister.
But it just isnt working out.
I dont know though.
I love the teachers in my majors.
I'm so excited for my double major.
I love Nsshla.
But I almost wanna go in the opposite direction from her.
I want to leave.
Start over.
Be with people I know and love.
People who get me.
I'm lost.
I really am.
& I'm scared.
Where do I go from here?