on another note
So February is upon us and of course the issue of Valentines Days comes up. As I was driving home from the downtown starbucks to visit my dear roommate and score some free java I was thinking about the last couple of Valentines I have spent in Ventura. Keep in mind that the last time i had an actual date for valentines day was when i was a sophomore in highschool. Anyway, when i first moved to ventura I left a boyfriend behind back home. We were together for a few months and decided we would try out the whole long distance thing while i attended Brooks. I started Brooks in January of '03. Things were going fine in the relationship. We would talk on the phone and he would come visit every so often. When Valentines rolled around that Feb. I decided to not let this "couples" holiday hold me back from anything. It turned out that he and I could not be together that day so I decided to treat myself to dinner. I decided to go to the Olive Garden table for one. Well it turns out when i was talking to the hostess and told her that I would be dining alone she asked if I would mind sitting in the bar. At the time I totally didn't mind. Having worked at the OG back home I know how busy they get on certain days so I placed myself in the bar and ate my dinner alone...chatting with the bartender. Now that I look back, just because I was dining alone on a couples holiday, doesnt mean that I should be treated any differently than those who walked in the door arm in arm.
Anyway, that was a small little rant...moving on. Obviously the relationship didn't work out and I think that was the first time I ever broke someones heart that bad. I broke up with him on one of my trips back home. We met for coffee at a starbucks and i did the whole "this isn't working out for me" spiel. The conversation then moved to inside of the car where he began sobbing. I didnt know what to do or how to feel. My cold-hearted bitch side sat in the passenger seat thinking, "gawd, his crying is annoying the fuck out of me" It was almost as if he wanted me to feel sorry for him so we could continue this pointless relationship. Don't get me wrong, i felt really bad for breaking his heart...but the crying had to stop.
After the break up we talked occasionally to see how each other was doing. Eventually we stopped talking. I have no idea how he is or what he has been up to.
Valentine's Day '04: By the time valentines day rolled around in '04 my boyfriend and i had already broken up on new years day. Believe me it was a refreshing way to start the new year! By february i was working on a photostory of a drag queen. The final day of the shoot was the drag show on Valentines day. I can't think of a beter way to spend Valentines day than with a binch of drag queens backstage at Paddy's. It was fun and entertaining to see such a different way of life.
This year I have no idea what will happen. Probably nothing. My roomie and I have talked about having an anti v day party where everyone must come in black...but since it's a day we both have school I don't know if that will happen. we will see. whatever.
On another note, I have been staying in more lately for a few reasons. To save money, to not drink so damn much and to just get back in touch with me. I have been in need of ideas for stories to work on and I need to focus on my photography. Staying in has actually been quite nice.
Anyway, that was a small little rant...moving on. Obviously the relationship didn't work out and I think that was the first time I ever broke someones heart that bad. I broke up with him on one of my trips back home. We met for coffee at a starbucks and i did the whole "this isn't working out for me" spiel. The conversation then moved to inside of the car where he began sobbing. I didnt know what to do or how to feel. My cold-hearted bitch side sat in the passenger seat thinking, "gawd, his crying is annoying the fuck out of me" It was almost as if he wanted me to feel sorry for him so we could continue this pointless relationship. Don't get me wrong, i felt really bad for breaking his heart...but the crying had to stop.
After the break up we talked occasionally to see how each other was doing. Eventually we stopped talking. I have no idea how he is or what he has been up to.
Valentine's Day '04: By the time valentines day rolled around in '04 my boyfriend and i had already broken up on new years day. Believe me it was a refreshing way to start the new year! By february i was working on a photostory of a drag queen. The final day of the shoot was the drag show on Valentines day. I can't think of a beter way to spend Valentines day than with a binch of drag queens backstage at Paddy's. It was fun and entertaining to see such a different way of life.
This year I have no idea what will happen. Probably nothing. My roomie and I have talked about having an anti v day party where everyone must come in black...but since it's a day we both have school I don't know if that will happen. we will see. whatever.
On another note, I have been staying in more lately for a few reasons. To save money, to not drink so damn much and to just get back in touch with me. I have been in need of ideas for stories to work on and I need to focus on my photography. Staying in has actually been quite nice.