and the point is
whats the fucking point of going to sleep anyway!!!
I was telling a friend on the 12th..."it's just that kind of Sunday" which means anything that did not happen on the weekend probably will happen on sunday!
i've begun to not looking forward to Sundays...things happen that you do not expect and are thrown in your face....such is life!
Had interesting conversations with people that i never thought i would have conversations with and actually...it was quite meaningful. it made me realize some things about myself and others.
I have this image in my mind of what i want...out of a person...out of life...out of a lover...and I do not know how to obtain that. And in reality, i'm afraid. i'm afraid of being in a relationship. I'm afraid of liking someone, i'm afraid of loving.
i feel stuck. i want out.
i hate the feeling of wanting to have a meaningful relationship with a guy (friends that read this please dont think i'm talking about the one who i'm doing so well at ignoring...this is just in general) because i know that after school, i probably won't be here for very much longer (and that makes me sad because i've made such great friends). Ventura is a great place for having my friends and an occasional top three, spank bank, santas little helper, but never would i look for a relationship in this town again...i made that mistake already( dep. T. Junior).
the grass is never greener...but i'm ready to move on.
I was telling a friend on the 12th..."it's just that kind of Sunday" which means anything that did not happen on the weekend probably will happen on sunday!
i've begun to not looking forward to Sundays...things happen that you do not expect and are thrown in your face....such is life!
Had interesting conversations with people that i never thought i would have conversations with and actually...it was quite meaningful. it made me realize some things about myself and others.
I have this image in my mind of what i want...out of a person...out of life...out of a lover...and I do not know how to obtain that. And in reality, i'm afraid. i'm afraid of being in a relationship. I'm afraid of liking someone, i'm afraid of loving.
i feel stuck. i want out.
i hate the feeling of wanting to have a meaningful relationship with a guy (friends that read this please dont think i'm talking about the one who i'm doing so well at ignoring...this is just in general) because i know that after school, i probably won't be here for very much longer (and that makes me sad because i've made such great friends). Ventura is a great place for having my friends and an occasional top three, spank bank, santas little helper, but never would i look for a relationship in this town again...i made that mistake already( dep. T. Junior).
the grass is never greener...but i'm ready to move on.