a moment of reflection
School is in session and I am currently taking PF Bentley's video for photjournalists class. First of all let me say this...i hate video...still photography is what I;m good at, however,just because I'm not good at something doesnt mean I should give up on it. I am still trying to keep an open mind about the whole thing and do my best to do well at it. Its just hard trying to get yourself in a "motion" sort of mode when youre so used to "stopping" everything at 1/125 of a second. Plus, I remember when I first started this school and I sucked at taking good photographs. Not that I'm totally amazing now, but I have come a long way and the only reason why I am where I am photographically speaking is because I had to work at it. I mean work through tears people, work through self doubt (which, by the way is the worst of them all), work through some seriously tough times that had nothing to do with photography (closest friends will know of what I speak of because you were the ones hauling my ass around town, one great friend even watched while the worst of it was taking place, there was nothing he could do) but effected my art nonetheless. I am willing to work at what I love, no matter what the extreme sacrifice is...thats the only option that I have really...nothing more nothing less.