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Never thought I'd find myself in this position once, much less twice. I thought it was resolved... I thought we'd moved on since the last time. I was wrong. She is a good actor... which makes things much harder.
I knew she could before... now I know she does. That just makes things harder. She cried for me as I have cried for her. She's seen the same things in her mind as I have in mine.
I don't know if the next week is a blessing or a curse. I'm leaning toward the latter. Next week will be hell, no question of it. Extra work, more driving, more of this.
So very complicated. I need her.
I knew she could before... now I know she does. That just makes things harder. She cried for me as I have cried for her. She's seen the same things in her mind as I have in mine.
I don't know if the next week is a blessing or a curse. I'm leaning toward the latter. Next week will be hell, no question of it. Extra work, more driving, more of this.
So very complicated. I need her.