not a depressing post
I wrote in my last journal that I wouldn't post anything depressing anymore because it upsets people and they think i've gone and offed myself. I wrote I wouldn't post until I had something happy to post about like pictures of hot girls, how great my job is, or shit people can't afford, like some people I know do. But...insomnia and depression are a fucking bitch of a combination. I sleep all day and I am assaulted by the most fucked up dreams I have ever had. When it comes to sleep at night, I lie in bed and stare at the ceiling. So, tonight I took a little spin, went to the QT, got some soda and some teriyaki beef jerky...yum! Now I am at home and still can't sleep, so I decided to post something, but in accordance to my last post, it will not be a depressing post. I don't want to hurt someone's eyes or feelings when they read my bullshit. I just wanna post a few points.
-I heard they passed a law making DUIs a felony. So, I pray people take that into consideration when they go out with their buddies for a brew. Just one beer is sometimes enough to put you over the legal limit and now DUIs pack a whollop.
-I purged myself of uneccesary people. I started by deleting some people from my cell phone contact list. When I was done, I had deleted at least half my phone book. There were so many people in there who don't give a flying fuck about me or people that never call, so I got rid of them.
-I am keeping my cell phone off. No one ever really fucking calls anyhow and I really don't feel like chatting with anyone. Anyone important enough to me, or says they are my friend, will know how to contact me in other ways and without asking my brother or a friend on how to contact me. If you have to go through someone to get a hold of me, you were never a friend to begin with. If you can't get a hold of me to see how I'm doing and instead have to go through someone else and ask them how I'm doing, it puts serious doubt into my head regarding a "real" friendship, or we weren't friends to begin with. If I only hang out with you or see you when my brother or a friend asks you to hang out and I happen to tag along, see last sentence about doubt and whatnot. I write this because I am told that people are concerned about me when they read my depressing posts, yet I don't hear shit from them personally. I just hear shit secondhand, through someone else. If someone was really "concerned," I would have heard something from them. Hence, since I never hear shit from anyone, I deleted half my phone book and keep my phone off. Purging and venting is good!
-I started to delete people from my instant messenger services, but instead I just completely deleted my Yahoo IM and AOL IM, since I never really chat with anyone anyway and the same thing with the cell phone applies (people don't care/hardly talk to those people).
-I was using Myspace, but stopped that as well.
-Finally, insomnia fucking sucks. I'm gonna go grab a glass of warm milk and a bat so I can bludgeon myself until I reach unconsciousness. yes, that would be both fun and invigorating. Yay invigorating. No comments allowed on this post either. Not like it matters because I write this for me and no one reads or cares about my bullshit rants anyhow. Well, I do hope someone reads the thing about DUIs and passes it on because that shit is actually important.
-I heard they passed a law making DUIs a felony. So, I pray people take that into consideration when they go out with their buddies for a brew. Just one beer is sometimes enough to put you over the legal limit and now DUIs pack a whollop.
-I purged myself of uneccesary people. I started by deleting some people from my cell phone contact list. When I was done, I had deleted at least half my phone book. There were so many people in there who don't give a flying fuck about me or people that never call, so I got rid of them.
-I am keeping my cell phone off. No one ever really fucking calls anyhow and I really don't feel like chatting with anyone. Anyone important enough to me, or says they are my friend, will know how to contact me in other ways and without asking my brother or a friend on how to contact me. If you have to go through someone to get a hold of me, you were never a friend to begin with. If you can't get a hold of me to see how I'm doing and instead have to go through someone else and ask them how I'm doing, it puts serious doubt into my head regarding a "real" friendship, or we weren't friends to begin with. If I only hang out with you or see you when my brother or a friend asks you to hang out and I happen to tag along, see last sentence about doubt and whatnot. I write this because I am told that people are concerned about me when they read my depressing posts, yet I don't hear shit from them personally. I just hear shit secondhand, through someone else. If someone was really "concerned," I would have heard something from them. Hence, since I never hear shit from anyone, I deleted half my phone book and keep my phone off. Purging and venting is good!
-I started to delete people from my instant messenger services, but instead I just completely deleted my Yahoo IM and AOL IM, since I never really chat with anyone anyway and the same thing with the cell phone applies (people don't care/hardly talk to those people).
-I was using Myspace, but stopped that as well.
-Finally, insomnia fucking sucks. I'm gonna go grab a glass of warm milk and a bat so I can bludgeon myself until I reach unconsciousness. yes, that would be both fun and invigorating. Yay invigorating. No comments allowed on this post either. Not like it matters because I write this for me and no one reads or cares about my bullshit rants anyhow. Well, I do hope someone reads the thing about DUIs and passes it on because that shit is actually important.